Who Are You People?

August 7, 2016

This is an English paper I had to write for a class.  I was given free reign to write about anything I wanted, as long as it was related to my field of study.   I chose to write about my struggle to escape solipsism, and my thoughts on whether or not the other people around me even exist.  I took quantum mechanics seriously, and delved into the issue with full force.  I basically end up concluding that you have to do some serious mental gymnastics to attribute any sort of “real” existence to an objective physical world, or to other people at all.  I wanted to get into a lot more detail into these problems, but the paper had to be a relatively short length, so I wasn’t able to share everything I wanted to say.  I’ll consider adding an addendum to the end sometime soon.

Though mankind has been wondering about the true nature of reality ever since the dawn of civilization, modern conceptions of reality originate with Issac Newton around the year 1700.  Newton’s picture of the world follows human intuition, envisioning space as an infinite three-dimensional box filled with chunks of matter which follow nice, easily visualized trajectories as time flows uniformly, moment by moment.  All of this began to change near the dawn of the twentieth century as scientists were exploring the properties of atoms.  In order to explain things such as why different elements give off distinct wavelengths of light, or why objects at a set temperature give off distinctive signatures of heat radiation, a new theory of matter had to be devised.  This gave birth to the discipline of quantum mechanics, a set of mathematical tools to calculate how matter behaves on the tiniest scales.  This theory went on to become the most successful tool in all of science, calculating the exact properties of atoms down to ten parts in a billion.  However, this theory is also extremely bizarre.  Its equations are no longer deterministic like Newton’s equations which give exact and precise results given a set of initial circumstances; these new equations are instead telling physicists that many different possibilities can happen at any given moment, though some outcomes are more likely to happen than others.  Puzzled, physicists and philosophers began to invent interpretations as to what these equations are saying about reality.  Now a century later, opinions and interpretations still vary.  While a slim majority of physicists subscribe to the Copenhagen theory, which states that reality exists as a set of varied possibilities, described by the quantum wave function until collapsing down to a single possibility upon observation (measurement), this collapsing process is mystical, vague, and incomplete.  By introducing a non-physical Mind which exists outside of space and time, this collapsing process can be avoided, offering a more elegant interpretation of the wave function, and why an observer experiences one particular reality as opposed to the many possibilities inherent to any quantum mechanical description of reality.  However, this type of interpretation comes at a cost as it is extremely difficult to account for other sentient Minds without introducing yet another over-arching Mind which grounds the observers to a common reality.

A central puzzle to the interpretation of quantum physics is that the equations describe many different possible realities on top of one another, smeared across space in a wave, yet when an experiment or observation is performed, only one reality is observed and different observers agree on this reality.  This can be vividly illustrated in a thought experiment created by the Nobel laureate physicist Erwin Schrodinger.  He imagined placing a cat and a vial of cyanide in a special box which is linked up to a radiation detector.  If this detector is activated by incoming radiation, the vial is released and the cat is killed.  He then imagined placing a radioactive atom near this detector.  The key to this experiment is that to describe whether or not a radioactive atom, such as Uranium, will decay and release radiation requires quantum physics, and if one was to model and solve the equations for this situation, he would derive a wave function which would tell him that within a certain time-frame, there is a certain probability that the atom will release radiation, and a certain probability that it will not, but it will not tell him for certain what will happen. This same wave function would also include both possibilities for the state of the cat, which in the case of atomic decay would be dead and in the other case alive.  While intuitively it would seem that the cat must either be dead or alive and cannot be both simultaneously, according to the laws of quantum physics, this is not so.  A very strange thing happens when a person decides to walk up to the box and open it, looking at the cat for himself.  One of the particular possibilities offered by the wave function is chosen through unknown means, and the other possibilities vanish into thin air.  The cat is either dead or alive, based upon whether the uranium atom decayed or not, and there is no way of knowing the outcome for certain prior to looking for oneself.  This rather mystical process, where one of the possibilities is chosen over the others, and all other possibilities disappear, is called the collapse of the wave function.  Schrodinger’s thought experiment weighed heavily on Einstein, making him question whether there was an objective reality at all.  Writing to Schrodinger he said, “You are the only contemporary physicist, besides Laue, who sees that one cannot get around the assumption of reality, if only one is honest. Most of them simply do not see what sort of risky game they are playing with reality—reality as something independent of what is experimentally established. Their interpretation is, however, refuted most elegantly by your system of radioactive atom + amplifier + cat in a box, in which the psi-function of the system contains both the cat alive and blown to bits. Nobody really doubts that the presence or absence of the cat is something independent of the act of observation.”  (Maxwell). Einstein was perplexed by quantum physics, realizing that if it is true, it seems impossible for there to be an objective reality independent of that which is observed by sentient Minds, because the very process of observing and making measurements seems to bring a particular reality into existence.

Most physicists largely ignore the problem of wave function collapse and choose to adhere to the Copenhagen interpretation which brushes the problem under the rug.  This Copenhagen position was explained best by the physicist John von Neumann in his classic book Mathematical Foundations Of Quantum Mechanics.  Von Neumann states that quantum mechanical systems must evolve by two separate laws.  When no measurements are taking place, the physical system evolves according to the wave equations of quantum mechanics.  However, when measurements are taking place, the system follows the postulate of wave collapse, and no longer follows the wave equations. (von Neumann).  The central problem is that he never precisely defines what constitutes the “measurement” process, and the very idea of making a distinction between “measurement” and other activities feels clumsy and artificial.  All measuring devices, even people themselves, are made of atoms and those atoms should obey the same laws of physics.  Also, physics is a precise science, yet this method leaves it ambiguous as to whether a system should be collapsing or further evolving according to the wave equations.  Physicist and philosopher David Albert of Columbia University addresses this problem in his book Quantum Mechanics and Experience, walking the reader through every known attempt to pin down what this measurement process actually is.  He concludes by saying, “there hasn’t ever been so much as a shred of what you might call normal experimental evidence that the quantum state of any isolated physical system in the world ever fails to evolve in perfect accordance with the linear dynamical equations of motion. And so there seem to be a number of good reasons for looking for a different angle on this whole business.” (Albert).  In other words, there is no evidence for this Copenhagen approach and its distinction between measuring and not measuring.  There is also no reason to believe a wave function collapse ever takes place at all, and every attempt at even defining this ill-defined concept is problematic.

A more elegant approach proposes that the Mind exists outside of space and time, that it is not subject to the laws of quantum mechanics, and that it picks out one possibility available from the wave function through something akin to concentration.  This position is argued by Dr. Casey Blood of Rutgers University in his paper “A Primer On Quantum Mechanics and Its Implications.”  In this view, there is no need for wave function collapse.  The Mind peruses eternal, timeless quantum fields, where all possibilities are already pre-written, similar to movies which have been pre-recorded onto holographic plates.  The Mind connects to certain field patterns it is compatible with, such as the human brain, and flies through these fields, playing them like a special projector which allows the viewer control over the direction of the movie and plot.  A common objection to this type of dualism is that it is difficult to establish how a Mind existing outside of space and time can communicate with matter.  However, in this case it does not need to.  The Mind is only perceiving these fields and it does not ever communicate any sort of force on reality.  As Schrodinger himself said in his book Nature and the Greeks, “The observing mind is not a physical system, it cannot interact with any physical system.” (Schrodinger, Nature and the Greeks) Another objection is that proposing such a Mind is unscientific because it could never possibly be observed.  But consider that there are many things which are commonly agreed to exist which seem to exist outside of space and time.  Take the color red or the number four for instance.  They do not exist in any particular place in space and time.  This also seems to apply to all subjective experience.  A physicist or neuroscientist may be able to lay out a complex pattern of neural electrical signals and claim it is the subjective experience of listening to an opera, but if one directly compares subjective experiences of sounds with brain-matter pulsing with electrical signals, they are two entirely different things.  There may be some sort of correlation between the two in time, but they cannot be one and the same thing.  And more importantly, the world described by physics is nothing but mathematical vibrations and waves, and it is difficult, if not impossible, to say mathematical waves are equivalent to subjective conscious experiences.  As Schrodinger once said in an article he wrote for the Observer, “Although I think that life may be the result of an accident, I do not think that of consciousness. Consciousness cannot be accounted for in physical terms. For consciousness is absolutely fundamental. It cannot be accounted for in terms of anything else.” (Moore) This view is bound to be unpopular with scientists who demand proof for all things by observation and experiment, but this then puts pressure on them to explain wave collapse; their vague conceptions of “measurement” are equally mysterious.

But a central problem to this Mind interpretation of quantum mechanics is that it is extremely difficult to account for other Minds, as any other person experienced seems to be an illusory construct, similar to a character on a movie screen.  To deal with this problem, Blood has to resort to introducing yet another Mind, an over-arching Mind. “Instead of each individual Mind being separate from all others, each Mind is a fragment or facet of a single overarching MIND. Each individual Mind is that aspect of MIND that is responsible for perceiving the state of the associated individual physical brain.” (Blood).  Every individual must be aspects of the same Mind in order to be connected to one another in a common reality.  They cannot co-exist in a common space and time, because there is no objective space and time, so this appears to be the only way to keep them grounded in a common reality.  This view initially seems absurd, but a carefully prepared thought experiment can at least support the idea that these Minds truly are connected and are aspects of one and the same thing.  Imagine two people laying down on an operating table.  Their skulls are cut open and their brains are exposed.  A mad scientist then begins to wire the two brains together through some very sophisticated technology, sharing the sensory inputs, memories, and emotions between brains.  Before long, the two brains seem to operate as one, and it would seem reasonable that what was once two consciousness Minds has now been merged into one common Mind.  At first glance, subjective consciousness between individuals seems to be an inseparable barrier, and many religious traditions assume that each individual has his own spirit, which is absolutely separate and fundamental.  But this thought experiment illustrates that this unity of consciousness, which is always experienced in the singular, can strangely absorb other Minds when brains are wired up to share information.  When Schrodinger was formulating quantum mechanics, he was heavily influenced by Eastern philosophy, where these ideas are not uncommon.  In his book My View of the World, he says, “Vedanta teaches that consciousness is singular, all happenings are played out in one universal consciousness and there is no multiplicity of selves.”  (Schrodinger, My View of the World) But even if this thought experiment helps to illustrate how this could be possible, it is still extremely confusing and unintuitive.  All people are somehow one and the same Mind, interconnected in some inexplicable way, yet they are all still individually choosing an individual experience, and even more bizarrely, this Over-Arching Mind somehow brings individual Minds to agreement on a common reality; unfortunately, this unsatisfactory alternative to wave collapse is the logical conclusion one is led to when postulating Minds outside of space and time which must somehow agree on a common reality. Otherwise one falls into solipsism.

The famed physicist Richard Feynman once said, “If you think you understand quantum mechanics, you do not understand quantum mechanics.”  These strange equations describe physical reality with absolute precision, allowing the modern world to build much of its modern technology, including computers, all electronics, and even pharmaceutical drugs, yet physicists and philosophers have no idea what they actually mean.  They describe a strange reality, where multiple possibilities exist at every turn, yet strangely, each sentient observer only seems to perceive one common reality which everyone he perceives agrees on.  No matter which interpretation of quantum mechanics one takes, mystery and confusion are soon to follow, and thinking hard about these questions can easily make one lose touch with reality.  It is not likely that the world will see a commonly accepted interpretation of quantum mechanics anytime soon because these questions get to the very heart of what the human experience actually is, and the second one thinks he has the universe figured out, it likes to put him in his place.

Works Cited:

Albert, David Z. Quantum Mechanics and Experience. Cambridge, MA: Harvard UP, 1994. Print.

Blood, Casey. (2010, Jan 10). A primer on quantum mechanics and its interpretations.  Retrieved July 27, 2016, from the arXiv database.

Maxwell, Nicholas. “Induction and Scientific Realism: Einstein versus Van Fraassen Part Three: Einstein, Aim-Oriented Empiricism and the Discovery of Special and General Relativity.” The British Journal for the Philosophy of Science 44.2 (1993): 275-305. Web.

Moore, Walter John. Schrödinger, Life and Thought. Cambridge: Cambridge UP, 1989. Print.

Schrödinger, Erwin. Nature and the Greeks. Cambridge: U, 1954. Print.

Schrödinger, Erwin. My View of the World. Cambridge: U, 1964. Print.

Von Neumann, John. Mathematical Foundations Of Quantum Physics. Princeton, NJ. Princeton University Press. 1996. Print.


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Wikileaks Proves Primary Was Rigged Against Bernie

July 24, 2016

I wrote a post a little while ago about how the Democratic primary was rigged against Bernie.  I had several people make fun of me, claiming I was engaging in “conspiracy theories”.  I even had another send me a video from College Humor, where they had dimwitted students trying to prove Bernie was actually winning with “Bernie Math”.  Well, now these people can go read the 20,000 leaked emails from the DNC acquired by Wikileaks.   The entire organization was doing everything they could to thwart Bernie.

For example, they were working hand in hand with the mainstream media, such as MSNBC, trying to come up with tactics to destroy his popularity.  They even resorted to having plants within his campaign, trying to find ways to sabotage him.  They were even illegally funneling money to Hillary, money that was supposed to go to the nominee.  The list goes on and on.  I really wish people were not so naive.

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The Quality Of A Relationship

April 13, 2016

I don’t normally write about these sorts of topics, but I wanted to discuss love and relationships with all of you.  Gasp!  Yeah, I know, it’s not the sort of thing you expect me to write about, of all people.  I’m mainly writing this hoping some of you will read through it and comment on what you think, or share things you might add.  If you’ve been in a loving, successful relationship for a long time, I’d be especially interested to hear your perspective.  Overall, any input from you all would be great.

I have a simple rubric, a mental checklist which I use to evaluate the quality of a friendship or relationship.

This a mutual revealing of intimate details about ourselves, our likes and dislikes, dreams and worries, our proud and shameful moments.  The keyword is mutual.  The process tends to be I reveal a little, they reveal a little, and we learn about each other over time.  I look for an active interest in me, my life, the things that happen to me, and that I sense this person wants to understand me and how I feel.  And of course, I want to know about them as well (I already know about me).

Quality Time Together
I believe people make time for what’s important to them.  Everyone’s always busy, but if I’m important to them, they’ll make time for me.  It’s important to be an active part in one another’s lives.  The more active we are in one another’s lives, the more serious I consider the relationship.

This is where we both receive in the same proportion as what we give.  As time goes on, there is a mutual sharing of ourselves and our possessions, we make decisions together, we give and get emotional support from one another, we care about each other’s welfare, and we value and respect one another.

This includes things like nice gestures, thoughtful things done for one another, praise, and things like that.

This list may not be exhaustive, but I think it’s a decent basic foundation of a good relationship.  From my experience, when these things aren’t present, the relationship is pretty crappy.

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A Rigged Election

April 10, 2016

Here in the United States we’re told we live in a democracy; we don’t.  If you’ve been following the U.S. presidential race, you’ll see how the establishment has purposely been derailing the will of the people, rigging the system in favor of Hillary Clinton.  The overall idea is that the popular political parties focus all their energies into one candidate who is decided by popular vote in a sort of “candidate election”.  Based on how many votes a candidate receives, they earn these party “delegates” in each geographic area, and whoever gets the most delegates wins their party’s nomination.  Currently the Democratic party is voting for who will be their candidate, and a heated race is happening between Bernie Sanders and Hillary Clinton.  But if you follow what’s happening, the system is being rigged and manipulated.  For instance, just recently results came in from the state of Wyoming.  Bernie Sanders won the popular vote 56%-44%, and how how were the delegates assigned?  Hillary Clinton walks away with 11 delegates and Bernie got 7.  What in the world’s going on?

To understand this, you have to learn about superdelegates.  So who are these superdelegates?  I’ll let Wikipedia explain.

“In American politics, a “superdelegate” is a delegate to the Democratic National Convention who is seated automatically and chooses for whom he or she wants to vote. According to Democratic Chairwoman Debbie Wasserman Shultz, superdelegates are in place to protect party leaders from running against grassroots activists. [1]These Democratic Party superdelegates include distinguished party leaders, and elected officials, including all Democratic members of the House and Senate and sitting Democratic governors. Other superdelegates are chosen during the primary season. Democratic superdelegates are free to support any candidate for the nomination. This contrasts with convention “pledged” delegates who are selected based on the party primaries and caucuses in each U.S. state, in which voters choose among candidates for the party’s presidential nomination. Because they are free to support anyone they want, superdelegates could potentially swing the results to nominate a presidential candidate who did not receive the majority of votes during the primaries.”

– Source:  Wikipedia

Isn’t that nice.  Sure we the people can “vote” for a candidate, but if the establishment doesn’t like who  we vote for, they’re going to use this superdelegate system to rig the election for their preferred candidate.  Normal delegates are assigned by popular vote (that’s how Bernie got 7 delegates in Wyoming), but there are lots of these establishment superdelegates who vote however they want and of course, they vote Hillary.  That’s how Hillary got her extra 4 delegates in Wyoming.  And isn’t their system of rounding nice?  56% of 14 total “normal” delegates is 7.84.  In other words, for Wyoming, Bernie should’ve gotten 8, Hillary 6, and ALL the superdelegates should’ve went to Bernie, giving him 12 to Hillary’s 6.  Instead Hillary walks away 11-7.

This is happening all over the country.  In many states Bernie is winning with an 80-20 margin, but 94% of the 498 superdelegates are going to Clinton.  In Colorado, Sanders won 59% of the vote; didn’t get a single superdelegate.  In Nebraska he won 57% of the vote; not a single superdelegate.  In Idaho Bernie won 80% of the vote; didn’t get a single superdelegate.  In the state of Washington, Bernie won 75% of the vote, winning every single congressional district; not a single superdelegate.  In Minnesota, Bernie got 61.6% of the popular vote, but only got 3 of 16 superdelegates.

Right now, if Sanders had the superdelegate votes that Clinton has, he’d be winning the delegate race 1444 to 1272.  Instead Hillary is “winning”, due to crazy rounding and superdelegates.  What a joke.

To go back to the state of Washington, these “superdelegates” include Gov. Jay Inslee, U.S. senators Maria Cantwell and Patty Murray, and U.S. representatives Jim McDermott, Suzan DelBene, Rick Larsen, Adam Smith, Denny Heck and Derek Kilmer.  Isn’t that nice, a bunch of politicians voting for who they think should be our president, overriding the will of the people.

This system of superdelegates needs to be abolished immediately.

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My Future Plans

March 9, 2016

To any of you who may be interested, I haven’t shared much about my personal life in a long time, so I figured I’d update everyone about what’s going on.

For quite a while now I’ve been finished with all my core classes for my physics degree.  They were really a walk in the park.  For a lot of them, I never even attended class other than test days, and that was really nice.  But the thing is, I have a lot of my “crap” courses left and that really depresses me.  For years now I’ve suffered from depression, which can be really severe at times, but I ONLY get depressed when I have to go to classes, and it’s always the classes I can’t stand.  Maybe I’ll briefly explain why these “crap” courses make me so depressed.

I can remember one time studying for hours and hours, day after day, memorizing pointless information for a class on British literature.  (By the way, I have no interest in British literature and I hate poetry.)  Class itself consists of sitting passively while the professor goes over extremely boring trivia in a Powerpoint presentation.  Eventually we’d be tested on this worthless information, so I had to write each bulletpoint down on a notecard and I neded up with a huge stack of cards.  I’d then go over them for hours and hours, day after day, memorizing each stupid fact.  Since I still have these cards (I keep all my files from each class, just for occassions like these), so I’ll share some of the questions from these cards.

“Where was Samuel Taylor Coleridge born?”
“How many brothers and sisters did Coleridge have?”
“Who did Coleridge marry and for what reason?”
“What did Coleridge die of?”
“Whose quote is this, ‘A drop of ink may make a million think'”
“When Mad Jack left Lord Byron and his mother Catherine, where did they live in the meantime?”
“Who rescued George Gordon from his unstable household?”
“Lord Byron took a vacation which was very important to him.  Where was this?”
“When Mary Wooldstonecraft died, who did Godwin marry next?”
“What got Percy Shelly kicked out of school?”
“Where is Lord Byron buried?”

When that exam came around, I knew all the answers.  Of course, now I don’t even know who Coleridge is, and I don’t care.  I can’t answer a single question from these cards now.

Imagine doing this sort of thing for years and years.  This is your life as a full time student.  You have several of these sorts of classes each semester, each with their own information to memorize.  To say the least, it’s psychologically draining, but this is what universities are.  You sit through boring Powerpoint presentations and then you regurgitate the information on “exams”, and do busywork, like writing papers.  I have a very low threshold for this bullshit.

Take this current semester.  I was supposed to finally finish my last English course but I was getting so depressed attending class, I just dropped it.  I ended up losing $1000, but whatever.  Once I dropped the course, it was like a light shone down on me from above and I was reborn.  I felt so good.

I’d often visit with my parents and they’d see me super depressed, which isn’t how I normally am.  My Mom would tell me, “Jason, drop these classes.  Look at what they’re doing to you.  Why are you doing this to yourself?”  I think I’m the only person alive whose parents tell him to drop out of college.

I was supposed to write a paper in English and I threw something together, but I just didn’t care.  I thought, “I can’t take this.”  I’d go to class each morning at 8 am, and that woman would drone on about the most insipid, boring stuff imaginable.  Entire lectures were dedicated to the APA format, which is the formatting guidelines for American Psychological Association papers.  Yippee!  I’m not even a psychologist, but not that it matters.  She was literally going on for thirty minutes about how to format a title page in APA.  Why?  Who knows and who cares. Then she had some document prepared that wasn’t formatted correctly, and we were all to correct it together in class.  It was so bad.  There’s supposed to be eight new lines, then the title, in this font, of this size, and two more lines down you put your university name, then the subtitle, and blah blah blah.  I got on my tablet and texted a friend over Skype saying, “Please, shoot me.”

These students go to these classes like drones, and I just watch them, widdling away their lives, wasting their time doing these stupid assignments.  I couldn’t help but think, “What is this doing for the world?  For them?  For anyone?”  It was a complete waste of time.  Think of all the money and time that’s wasted all over the country on this stuff.  Most of these students are getting grants from the government, and that money is spent on expensive computer labs, so they can all mindlessly do these digital activities together.   I wouldn’t even call most of this stuff learning.  Most of it you could easily look up in thirty seconds on Google, if you needed the information.  I honestly don’t get it.

I can’t do it.  One of my advisors sat with me and said, “You have to do it.  No matter how good you are in math and physics, you can’t graduate until you finish these other required courses.”  I said, “I don’t know if I can.”  I have to take it in extremely small doses, which is why it’s been taking me so long to get out of college.  I can only do one, maybe two of these sorts of classes per semester.  And you may say, “Jason, why do you care about these classes?  Why do they matter?”  Well, I have to keep a perfect GPA or I can’t do my PhD research at some of the places I want to be involved with.  The competition to get into those places is just insane.

That’s the only reason I care.  I want to do research as a theoretical physicist, primarily a cosmologist, researching the big questions of the universe, dark matter, the big bang, how everything came to be, and all that good stuff.  Just lock me in a room, throw away the key, and leave me alone.  I’ll be applying to some good schools if I can ever finish these stupid “crap” courses.  I have a perfect GPA, so my goal is to do MIT.  MIT doesn’t require any classes, tests, homework, or any of that stuff.  You spend all your time doing research, so that’s my current goal.  I’m scared if I have a single B or C on my transcript, even in a “crap” course, I won’t get in, so I have no choice.  I just have to keep pushing.

If I can’t get into one of these really good schools to finish my PhD, researching cosmology, I don’t know if I’m even going to continue any of it.  I doubt I will.  It will all have been a giant waste of time.  That’s why I did all of this.  I want to work with some really bright minds on figuring out the universe.  If I can’t do that, I’m just wasting time.

If I can’t end up working as a cosmologist, doing worthwhile research, which is a possibility, I’m just going pack up my bags, take whatever job or position pays the most money, I’m going to finish saving up what money I need to retire, I’m going to live as minimally as possible, and then escape to a log cabin and have no interaction with anything or anyone.  The more remote, the better.

If I end up in the cabin, I’m never going to publish anything I research or figure out.  I’m not going to have any ties to academia or any university.  So far, I have put in almost seven years to this bullshit, writing papers I don’t care about, memorizing crap for exams, and doing all this nonsense.  I’ve told myself over and over that it’s worth it in the end, but if I can’t work as a cosmologist, it really isn’t.  I could have just went on as a software developer, making good money, and these universities have stolen enough of my time as it is.  I’m getting too old and they’ve stolen enough of my money as it is.  I’m not going to fool with any of it anymore.

It’s sad, but there are people like me in the world who really want to work on things and make a difference, but society erects this insane barrier to entry.  I live here in Rolla, the same town as my university, and not including room and board, my tuition and textbook expenses alone have totaled more than $60,000.  Single textbooks alone will cost $300.  $300 for one book!  If that’s not a barrier to entry, I don’t know what is.  Oh, and did I mention all the years of my life they’ve taken?  Even when I could have tested out of the courses on day one?  And of course, the useless crap courses, which is literally half of my required credits to graduate.

I’m so sick of universities.  I’m so sick of classes.  I’m so sick of it all.  It all ends in December of this year.  I’ve slowly widdled away at these crap courses, one or two at a time.  It could’ve ended a lot earlier, but I keep dropping classes.  But this will be the end because I’m not doing it anymore.  I either do real research on cosmology, figuring out real problems at a place like MIT, or I’m done.  No more.  Come the end of this year, I will not, I repeat, will NOT waste any more of my time memorizing information from powerpoint presentations, I will NOT write another paper on anything I’m not interested in, and I will NOT sit through lectures when I’m not learning anything.  It ends this year.

2017 will be my new beginning, if I can make it there without throwing myself in front of a bus.

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