A Different Jesus Than You’ve Heard About

Back in 1945, thirteen leather-bound papyrus codices were found bundled up in a sealed jar by a group of farmers who were digging deep within a cave in the Egyptian town of Nag Hammadi.  These texts are quite fascinating, especially the Gospel accounts which you’ve likely never read or even heard about.  These texts are filled with quotations and stories about Jesus and his disciples that are quite different from the ones you’ve read about in the Bible.  Though this “different” Jesus shares a lot of similarities with accounts from the Bible, in many core fundamental ways he is a totally different person.  So how are they different?

Let’s take a look at some of the verses found in the Gospel of Thomas.

14. Jesus said to them, “If you fast, you will bring sin upon yourselves, and if you pray, you will be condemned, and if you give to charity, you will harm your spirits.”

This Jesus is against prayer and fasting.  Don’t cry out to some external God for miracles or for help.  He teaches to tap into the divine energy within you and manifest your needs and desires as a child of the divine Father.  Being committed to this line of thinking, he feels charity is dangerous.  It’s not that it’s evil per say, and he doesn’t teach to ignore the suffering of others, but he’s giving a stark warning that when you give to others in need, it can limit the power they have within them to change their situation.  They can easily become dependent on you and they are held back, harming their spirit, never learning their own power.  He teaches that people live in poverty because they are poverty.

Jesus said, “If your leaders say to you, ‘Look, the (Father’s) kingdom is in the sky,’ then the birds of the sky will precede you. If they say to you, ‘It is in the sea,’ then the fish will precede you. Rather, the (Father’s) kingdom is within you and it is outside you.  When you know yourselves, then you will be known, and you will understand that you are children of the living Father. But if you do not know yourselves, then you live in poverty, and you are the poverty.”

This Jesus teaches that you should never do anything you hate.  Not a single thing.  If you dislike doing it, don’t do it.  It’s beneath you as a child of the divine Father.  Don’t sit around begging for things, suffering for no reason; leave this place.  Don’t feel you need to save this world, or help “fix” things.  Once the divine children leave this place, the Father plans to burn this entire universe to the ground.  He teaches for you to enter the divine Light, refuse to take on a physical form, and enter the perfected realms of the infinite Father.  Nobody has to suffer in any way.  All you have to do is leave the physical realm and enter the realms the Father intended for us to live in; there is no suffering there.  These scriptures teach that this reality is a botched mistake that shouldn’t exist.  He teaches that there are no worthwhile lessons to learn through suffering.  It’s not the way the Father’s kingdom operates, and we are in a messed up reality that is not operating according to the divine kingdom’s principles.  He wants us out of here, but it’s our choice whether or not we remain in physicality.  Also, in the higher realms your thoughts and emotions will be known to all, so there’s no reason to pretend.  You don’t have to pretend to love things you don’t love, or strive for some “holiness” through sacrifice.  There is no sacrifice, because if you realize the true power within, you have access to all things.  The same goes for everyone else.  There’s no reason for you or anyone else to go without anything you desire.  The same goes for food.  Eat anything you want.  As a divine child of the Father, if you eat an animal and it becomes you, lucky for it!  Now it too has become divine, just as you are.

6. His disciples asked him and said to him, “Do you want us to fast? How should we pray? Should we give to charity? What diet should we observe?”  Jesus said, “Don’t lie, and don’t do what you hate, because all things are disclosed before heaven. After all, there is nothing hidden that will not be revealed, and there is nothing covered up that will remain undisclosed.” 7. Jesus said, “Lucky is the lion that the human will eat, so that the lion becomes human. And foul is the human that the lion will eat, and the lion still will become human.”

This Jesus was not the prince of peace.  He declared that this world was run by deceptive spirits and created by mistake, and shouldn’t exist.  He was at war against it, and wanted all divine beings to awaken to who they are and return to the Light of the divine Father, where they can live in perfection, be at rest, and have all they desire.  He taught that it was so important to connect to this inner light within you and return to the Father, that you must even forsake your own family if they are holding you back.  That’s because if you have all things within you, do you really lose your family?  No.  You don’t ever lose anything.

16. Jesus said, “Perhaps people think that I have come to cast peace upon the world. They do not know that I have come to cast conflicts upon the earth: fire, sword, war.  For there will be five in a house: there’ll be three against two and two against three, father against son and son against father, and they will stand alone.”

This Jesus never died on a cross and never spoke of blood sacrifice.  He’s against sacrifice altogether.  He declared there are children of the Light, true sons and daughters of the divine Light, and some of them had descended into this deceptive world and forgotten who they are.  He came to deliver those people from suffering and help them return.  He is always saying things like, “To him who has ears let them hear”, or “Let there be among you a person who understands.”  He’s declaring that many of the people living in this place are not as they appear; they lack something that you have.  They lack that inner light, so they’re not even capable of perceiving the words he’s saying.

50. Jesus said, “If they say to you, ‘Where have you come from?’ say to them, ‘We have come from the light, from the place where the light came into being by itself, established [itself], and appeared in their image.’ If they say to you, ‘Is it you?’ say, ‘We are its children, and we are the chosen of the living Father.’ If they ask you, ‘What is the evidence of your Father in you?’ say to them, ‘It is motion and rest.'”
[ Note:  The divine children come from somewhere else and don’t belong here. ]

“19. Jesus said, “Congratulations to the one who came into being before coming into being.”
[ Note: The divine children existed before they were born and can never die. ]

23. Jesus said, “I shall choose you, one from a thousand and two from ten thousand, and they will stand as a single one.”
[ Note: Most living on this Earth are not divine children.  They are extremely rare.  When they return to the Light, they share the infinite mind of God. ]

107. Jesus said, “The (Father’s) kingdom is like a shepherd who had a hundred sheep. One of them, the largest, went astray. He left the ninety-nine and looked for the one until he found it. After he had toiled, he said to the sheep, ‘I love you more than the ninety-nine.'”

Not all the people living in this place existed before their birth; most did not.  To the gnostics, the majority of humanity are soulless, consisting simply of their body; these beings were called “hylics”.  To the Gnostics, hylics were human beings that are purely physical machinations, governed solely by sense impressions and material wants and desires.  There wasn’t much hope for them beyond this life, though if they really strived, a soul may awaken within them.  Overall though, since they had no higher essence within them, death was their annihilation.

There are other classes of beings as well.  For example, the Gnostics believed there are many who are possessed by the deceptive fallen entities.  These beings live among us, appearing as humans, and they have turned their backs to the Light.  These beings are immortal, but they have an inferior destiny awaiting them.  Their chief leader is the demiurge, a powerful albeit very flawed divine being who is the creator of the material world.  This demiurge further created beings called “archons” (or the “governors”) who are in charge of physical reality, one of their primary jobs being to enslave the divine children within physicality.  These archons exist both within and outside this “fake” world we live in.

A final class of beings were called “psychic”.  Apparently all matter is divine, even in this carcass of a world, and all matter has a tendency to gravitate toward awareness of the ultimate;  all matter is conscious to a degree with a desire to reconnect with the Light and the Infinite/Ultimate.  So say we have a simple spirit of a lobster or something.  It may reincarnate and reincarnate and reincarnate, slowly becoming more and more self-aware, until finally incarnating into a human being.  It has no awareness of anything beyond this physical world, at least not yet.  However, it does have a chance to awaken during its life/lives as a human, realizing that it’s part of something large.  They too will have a chance to enter the Light.  They only have to awaken, and upon death, desire to be with God and the Light.

29. Jesus said, “If the flesh came into being because of spirit, that is a marvel, but if spirit came into being because of the body, that is a marvel of marvels.  Yet I marvel at how this great wealth has come to dwell in this poverty.”

As for the deceptive entities in this world, who Jesus refers to as the “governors”, they are somehow feeding off the divine children and the “psychics” (lower spirits), exploiting them in some way by being here.  In some respect, these enslaved spirits are akin to farm animals.  Jesus specifically says the otherworldly entities feed on their carcasses (something having to do misery, sacrifice, and having taken on a physical form).  The governors feed off of some energy given off by the spirits when they suffer, or are in say in an animal body and are sacrificed.  That’s apparently why ancient religions were filled with human and animal sacrifice.  These otherworldly entities somehow received sustenance from that act.  But anyway, the Gnostic Jesus and his disciples warned that if you continue living in this place, you are a carcass which strange entities are feeding upon.  When you choose to live in a physical body in this place, you are choosing death.  These entities can only exploit you when you willingly choose to live here in a physical body.

60. He saw a Samaritan carrying a lamb and going to Judea. He said to his disciples, “that person … around the lamb.” They said to him, “So that he may kill it and eat it.” He said to them, “He will not eat it while it is alive, but only after he has killed it and it has become a carcass.”

They said, “Otherwise he can’t do it.”

He said to them, “So also with you, seek for yourselves a place for rest, or you might become a carcass and be eaten.”

This Jesus taught that the only way to find the Father was to abstain from the world.  You must silence your mind so that you can attune to this inner light within, and use it to connect back with the Father, the source.  He taught that this world was a dead carcass, and anyone who loves it will be forced to suffer by reincarnating in this poverty, over and over and over, until you give it up.  When you die, your spirit will be released from your body, but because you do not understand the Father and have not connected with the divine Light, you won’t know what to do, or you’ll be drawn back to this place by various desires.  In other words, you live in this poverty because you are this poverty.  You desire it, but you must rid yourself of desire for this place.

Jesus said, “If you do not fast from the world, you will not find the (Father’s) kingdom.”

56. Jesus said, “Whoever has come to know the world has discovered a carcass, and whoever has discovered a carcass, of that person the world is not worthy.”

87. Jesus said, “How miserable is the body that depends on a body, and how miserable is the soul that depends on these two.”

This Jesus taught that elites hold this knowledge back from the divine children, because they benefit from exploiting them here.

39. Jesus said, “The Pharisees and the scholars have taken the keys of knowledge and have hidden them. They have not entered nor have they allowed those who want to enter to do so.”

This Jesus taught that it’s alright to ridicule God, it’s even fine to ridicule the divine incarnation of Jesus, a son of God, but if you ridicule the Holy Spirit, your own personal inner connection to the divine Light, there’s no hope for you.  You’ll never find your way out of this place, and you’re stuck to live in this carcass and be fed upon.

44. Jesus said, “Whoever blasphemes against the Father will be forgiven, and whoever blasphemes against the son will be forgiven, but whoever blasphemes against the holy spirit will not be forgiven, either on earth or in heaven.”

So how will you know that you’ve found the divine Light?  If you think you’ve found the “truth” and you suffer in any way, are unhappy in any way, or are lacking in any way, you’ve found nothing at all.  Continue your search.

67. Jesus said, “Those who know all, but are lacking in themselves, are utterly lacking.”

He taught not look to anything external for salvation.  It’s only when you’ve reconnected with your divine nature and can manifest all your heart’s desires and lack nothing, then you’ve found where you belong.  If you don’t have this connection, you’re as good as dead. That’s the same reason he warned against the dangers of charity.

70. Jesus said, “If you bring forth what is within you, what you have will save you. If you do not have that within you, what you do not have within you [will] kill you.”

And when you do start to realize your inner potential, and can begin to change your destiny, and your course through this life, even if you manifest great wealth, power, or prestige, he taught to renounce it all.  It’s a giant pile of dung.  It’s not worthy of your time; this is especially true considering if you die and are filled with desires of this kind, it will draw you back to this place, and you will again take on a new carcass of flesh, and suffer and be fed upon.

110. Jesus said, “Let one who has found the world, and has become wealthy, renounce the world.”

112. Jesus said, “Damn the flesh that depends on the soul. Damn the soul that depends on the flesh.”

Damn the flesh that depends on the soul, meaning damn anyone who continues to manifest this physical reality using their divine powers, and damn any soul which desires this kind of reality.  It is evil and to be cast into the fire.  The Father (God) wants to burn up this realm, torch it, and burn it to the ground, but divine children are in here.  Get out so the Father can set it ablaze!

10. Jesus said, “I have cast fire upon the world, and look, I’m guarding it until it blazes.”

11. Jesus said, “This heaven will pass away, and the one above it will pass away.”

If you can believe this Jesus, we can’t blame God for this screwed up reality.  The Father had nothing to do with this place and wants to torch it.  It’s the divine children choosing to stay here that keeps it in existence, and some deceptive beings are struggling to keep them here. They keep them here by making them believe there’s nothing more, holding the truth from them, and deception.  They want them to focus on this reality, the carcass, and believe that it’s all they can know and that it’s all that exists.  The deceptive “governors” want all divine beings to believe that when you die, it’s the end.  This is all, according to the disciple Philip, to keep the divine children in filthy garments (physical bodies), and surround them with everything that is vile, enslave them, and feed off of them in some way (this feeding somehow being related to misery and sacrifice).

The rulers (archons) wanted to deceive man, since they saw that he had a kinship with those that are truly good. They took the name of those that are good and gave it to those that are not good, so that through the names they might deceive him and bind them to those that are not good. And afterward, what a favor they do for them! They make them be removed from those that are not good and place them among those that are good. These things they knew, for they wanted to take the free man and make him a slave to them forever.

These are powers which […] man, not wishing him to be saved, in order that they may […]. For if man is saved, there will not be any sacrifices […] and animals will not be offered to the powers. Indeed, the animals were the ones to whom they sacrificed. They were indeed offering them up alive, but when they offered them up, they died. As for man, they offered him up to God dead, and he lived.

– Gospel of Philip

I’d like to add a bit of things I’ve gathered from studying near death experiences, meditation, and out of body experiences.  So you die, believing that will be the end; you can be an atheist, agnostic, religious person, whoever.  You die, there is a separation from the physical body (meaning it’s no longer giving you sensory and other input), and you awaken, figuring out that you’re still alive; you may be surrounded by blackness, or maybe you’re hovering over your body, or maybe you’re manifesting all sorts of strange things with your random thoughts (another reason to learn to silence your mind), all of these situations are possible.  As an aside, apparently you don’t have to die to enter this state.  If you say enter a sensory deprivation chamber and clear your mind, or enter deep states of meditation, you will enter this same state of being which we typically refer to as “death”.  You just have to shift your focus of conscious attention away from the physical body and direct it inward.  That’s a bit of a tangent.  Either way, you’re dead and it’s not the end!  What do you do!  Where are you?  What is this place?  Why are you alive?  And as you’re waking up on the astral planes, disoriented, these deceptive beings swoop in on you.  They want to get you fast, before you can figure out where you are or what’s going on.  So here’s what I’ve been able to gather:  The deceptive ones create a fake tunnel of light, beam intense love emotion at you, shape-shift into your loved ones, religious deities, etc., and quickly approach you.  Then you think, ah, I’ve heard about the tunnel of light!  This must take me to heaven!  Oh, there’s mom and grandma!  They’re here to get me!  From what I’ve researched, these people are not who they appear to be.

Once you get there, the “governors” pretend to be religious teachers, angels, spiritual masters, and ascended ones.  Here they are, ready to help!  But this is only the beginning of their crafty deception.  Their one and only goal is to get you to AGREE to take on another physical reincarnation, either to return to your existing body, or for you to take on a new body.  They will use every trick in the book to convince you to willingly do so.  They’ll try guilt, especially if you believed in the concept of “sin”; they’ll tell you need to work off some bad karma, learn from your mistakes, that sort of thing.  Did you have drinking problems?  Well you need to experience that pain first hand in another life.  Your spouse will be an alcoholic, and you’ll have to try to help him or her through their addiction.  This will help you to learn better!  Or they’re going to attempt to convince you that you’re needed by your children, your husband, your wife, etc., and that you can make their lives so much better!  You must be there for them!  Or if you’re a thinking person, they’ll make living here on Earth out to be some deep spiritual journey.  Oh, this last life you were a rather balanced person, but in this next life, we’re going to give you a body that is far less emotional and far higher in intelligence, and by living in this new body, you will learn the importance of emotion and how intelligence isn’t everything.  Or vice versa, you’ll be very intuitive and emotional, but lack intelligence.  Heck, they’ll try to sign you up for a plan to try out both, a full blown reincarnational cycle, and then you can compare the two!  Think of that!  This next life you can be rich, or poor, or some average middle class person.  You can explore different ways of exerting power over others, from all sides. You can be a woman this time, or a man, and this time be beautiful or very ugly looking, and you’ll see first hand how people treat you and how important unconditional love is, how greed is bad, how there are positive aspects to everything, why we should share, etc.  Blah blah blah.  It’s all a deception.

Here’s Philip talking about the “governors” swooping down on you at death.  How do you escape the great powers?  Do not fear the body’s desires or love them.  You have to be above every desire and fear, and resist the great powers who come after you while you try to escape.  But if you choose to reincarnate, you remain dead, and your corpse will be eaten.

He who comes out of the world, and so can no longer be detained on the grounds that he was in the world, evidently is above the desire of the […] and fear. He is master over […]. He is superior to envy. If […] comes, they seize him and throttle him. And how will this one be able to escape the great […] powers? How will he be able to […]? There are some who say, “We are faithful” in order that […] the unclean spirits and the demons. For if they had the Holy Spirit, no unclean spirit would cleave to them. Fear not the flesh nor love it. If you fear it, it will gain mastery over you. If you love it, it will swallow and paralyze you.

This world is a corpse-eater. All the things eaten in it themselves die also. Truth is a life-eater. Therefore no one nourished by truth will die. It was from that place that Jesus came and brought food. To those who so desired, he gave life, that they might not die.

– Gospel of Philip

Jesus taught to never do anything you hate, and that physicality has nothing to teach you.  You’re not lacking in any way.  There’s no purpose for you being here.  There’s no spiritual “progress” to be found here.  If you get out of this physical realm, don’t worry about your children, your husband, your wife, the fate of the Earth, just get out of here.  When you reunite with the infinite, everything is there, including your family.  Lacking anything is an illusion.  These “governors” are liars.  Do not take on another physical reincarnation, under any circumstances, and do not let them convince you to come back.  Return to the divine clear Light.  Return the Father.  Return to the true, perfect realms of unconditional love, beauty, and joy, where all is available to you.

This all makes me think of an episode of Star Trek I saw a long time ago.  In that episode Captain Janeway had a near death experience and these “governors” tried to appear to her as her father, and tried to convince her to enter some matrix.  When she refused, the “governor” got mad, and told her that one day she would enter it, and that when she did, “they” would feed on her for a long, long time.  Watch this clip.

Notice Janeway says, “I’d rather remain here in spirit”, meaning she’s not physical at this point.  Then the Archon says to her, “The longer you stay here, the more difficult this process becomes.”  That’s because if you leave the physical behind, the longer you’re away from it, your emotional attachment to this place and the events that took place in your previous life/lives wanes, and you successfully leave it all behind.  They have to work fast.  I imagine that Nag Hammadi Jesus would tell you to step up in their face and tell them, “We can stand here all day, but I’ll never go with you!”

As I’ve stated, these “governors” are deceptive.  When you read near death accounts, many folks die on the operating table, or in a car crash, or however, they’re sucked up into this “divine” light (not the true clear light, but a lesser light created by the “governors”), and they meet some being who they believe to be God, Jesus, the angels, some loved one, whoever.  These folks want to stay in this wonderful place, but they’re told it is “not their time.”  They’re told there is some “purpose” they need to fulfill and they must “go back.”  Every time.  And you know what?  All these people come back, and twenty or even thirty years later, these folks are still wondering, “What was this purpose these divine beings spoke of?  I’ve never found it.”  That’s because there isn’t one.  The divine children do not belong here; the infinite Father does not want you here.

In The Dialogue of the Savior, Jesus spoke of what happens when you die; he said to avoid the deceptions of the “governors”, be wary of the things you create on this astral plane because your thoughts and fears manifest, and pass by all of it.  Return to the Father and the clear Light.  It’s unfortunate that a great deal of the text is missing.

“I will teach you. When the time of dissolution arrives, the first power of darkness will come upon you. Do not be afraid and say “Behold! The time has come!” But when you see a single staff … (3 lines indecipherable) … understand […] the work […] and the governors […] come upon you […]. Truly, fear is the power […]. So if you are going to be afraid of what is about to come upon you, it will engulf you. For there is not one among them who will spare you or show you mercy. But in this way, look at the […] in it, since you have mastered every word on earth. It […] take you up to the […] place where there is no rule […] tyrant. When you […] you will see those who […] and also […] tell you […] the reasoning power […] reasoning power […] place of truth […] but […]. But you […] truth, this […] living […] and your joy […]. So […] in order that […] your souls […] lest it […] the word […] raise… (3 lines indecipherable) … For the crossing place is fearful before you. But you, with a single mind, pass it by! For its depth is great; its height is enormous […] single mind […] and the fire […] […] all the powers […] you, they […] and the powers […] they […][…] soul […] […] in everyone […] you are the […] and […] forget […] son […] and you […][…].”

He’s trying to tell you to get to the clear light, where there are no more tyrants and evil rulers, and it’s a place of truth, life, and joy.  Whether strange beings approach you and threaten you, or you create scary things from your own imagination, do not fear them; resist and pass by them.  You’re in a realm where nothing can be done to you except by agreement, so don’t agree to things they tell you.  Make your way to the clear light that the Tibetan Book of the Dead talks about.  Delve deeper and deeper within, and let the light shine brighter and clearer.  Never agree to reincarnate and take on a physical form.

Matthew said, “Lord, I want to see that place of life, [the place] where there is no wickedness, but rather, there is pure light!”
The Lord said, “Brother Matthew, you will not be able to see it as long as you are carrying flesh around.”
Matthew said, “Lord, even if I will not be able to see it, let me know it!”
The Lord said, “Everyone who has known himself has seen it in everything given to him to do, […] and has come to […] it in his goodness.”

Judas said to Matthew, “We want to understand the sort of garments we are to be clothed with when we depart the decay of the flesh.”
The Lord said, “The governors and the administrators possess garments granted only for a time, which do not last. But you, as children of truth, not with these transitory garments are you to clothe ourselves. Rather, I say to you that you will become blessed when you strip yourselves! For it is no great thing […] outside.”

If you’re a divine child, you’re immortal and will never die.  You can’t be harmed and you’ll never run out of energy, but these … things … can feed off your sacrifices and misery which happens while in your physical “carcass”, at least so as long as you agree to live in this place.  It is time for you to rest.  There’s no need for you to work jobs you hate, live in bodies which decay, or continue to suffer.  It’s time to rest and enjoy the things we’ve always been entitled to.

The Savior said to his disciples, “Already the time has come, brothers, for us to abandon our labor and stand at rest. For whoever stands at rest will rest forever.”

This Jesus is quite different from the one you hear about in the Bible.  It’s all quite interesting.

Thoughts On Creating Your Own Reality

As I’ve mentioned often on this blog lately, I’ve been pursuing peace of mind.  Naturally, wanting to learn more about this, I have been spending a lot of time on Youtube, searching for lectures and videos on the topic, hoping to educate and better myself.  I’ve come to learn that ‘peace of mind’ is a topic a lot of ‘spiritual’ gurus and religious types like to talk about, so naturally I’ve been stumbling into a lot of their videos.  I’ve noticed that many of them get into “you create your own reality”, or “ask the universe for what you want and you will receive it!”

Whoa, that sounds great!  I can create my own reality?  Fantastic!  Let’s get started.  First off, I want to live on a giant floating island, way up in the clouds, inside of a beautiful palace.  This palace will be surrounded by an elaborate garden, filled with flowers, colorful stones, and statues. 

I want there to be rivers filled with crystal clear water, so pure I can drink it, and for this water to flow off the sides of my floating island as giant waterfalls, much larger than Niagra Falls.  Oh, and for fun I’ll have all sorts of hot air balloons.  I’ll hop off into one from a castle terrace and float off into this giant expanse of beauty, filled with majestic flying creatures, all who radiate magnificent rays of color.

Shimmering lights, similar to the auroras, will fill the skies around my castle; down below we will find legions of stunningly beautiful, magical nymphs who take care of my castle, its garden, and my every need. Oh, and of course, they’re all madly in love with me!  These nymphs will be made of magical light and will be able to take on any appearance.  They will endlessly love me, and you too if you come to visit!  They will be beings of pure unconditional love.  They’ll be amazing, funny, and overall, just a blast to be around.  We’ll play games, sing, and dance.  Oh, and when we really want to be crazy, we’ll also be able to manipulate these lights up above the castle and form any play reality we wish; there will be endless games, anything we can imagine really.  Love, beauty, and endless fun, for everyone!

I want there to be a special background energy in this space.  Unconditional love, ecstasy, and joy will permeate everyone who enters this place.  They will feel welcome, happy to be there, and filled with creative energy, ready to play all the limitless games we will imagine to play together.  There won’t even be a place for toxic, nasty behavior, unless it’s an act, and if considerable suffering starts to happen in a particular game, we’ll always end it.    

This sounds great.  I’ve made my request, now … MANIFEST! … MAAANNNIFFFEESSSTTTT NNOOOWWWW!  *waves finger around like a wand*

Nothing happened.

Oh, wait a minute.  I thought I could create my own reality?  What kind of scam are you pulling here?  Oh, I can only choose to create within extremely lame limitations.  Oh, I have a choice, but it’s only between this boring job and that boring job, neither of which are any fun to do?  Oh and to accomplish or do anything worth doing, there will be extreme suffering and tedium galore, otherwise you’ll say I lacked “faith”?  Oh, and I can choose between this little box or that little box to live in, neither or which are particularly impressive.  I suppose there are choices, but they’re all lame choices.

What do I want to do?  All the things in my imagination which aren’t even possible in this place.  I want to build a fantasy airship and float off into an epic adventure.  I want to build and race futuristic flying cars at supersonic speeds on strange race tracks floating in space.  I want to ride on the back of a giant, magical, talking panther in a majestic forest and romance a beautiful princess as I defend her from goblins and somehow help her save her kingdom from ruin.  I don’t know, something!  

Create my own reality?  If I’m stuck in this … place … whatever it is, I’d just play and create video games, lift weights with the guys, play sports, maybe learn to play the piano, compose some music, I don’t know, fun stuff like that.  Who knows, I even liked to draw in the past.  I think it’s cool to express this neat stuff in your imagination so others can experience it, at least in some way.  But my biggest problem has been that the things I really find interesting and enjoy doing, you can rarely if ever earn money doing it.  So maybe I should practice manifesting bazillions of dollars, so I can liberate myself and all my friends, and we’ll do fun stuff.  Yay!  But isn’t that what everyone pretty much dreams of?  That’s why there’s so much greed when it comes to money.

When You Try To Pull Yourself Up By Your Bootstraps But Can’t

My friend Greg and I often discuss how the government stifles so many hard-working people, and keeps them down.  I just wanted to share some examples of this.

Take this story of Esteban Narez, a ranch hand from California.  To make ends meet he does a lot of odd jobs.  At some point he realized he could improve his life a great deal if he could only learn how to shoe horses.  So, he enrolls into Pacific Coast Horseshoeing School, only to be rejected because he lacks a high school diploma.  So now the government is trying to get him to take english, algebra, history, and a bunch of general high school courses.  The sad part is, he doesn’t have time for all that nonsense.  It’s useless to him and he doesn’t have the time to waste on it, nor the money!  He just wants to learn how to learn to shoe horses so he can move up a little in life.  But can he?  Nope.  In order to have permission to better yourself, somebody in government decided that everyone must first have a high school diploma, instead of letting people be who they are.  Sadly, these sorts of arbitrary regulations are not helping the poor, they’re actually holding these people down.

This general idea of holding skilled people back because they lack some worthless accreditation is commonplace in this country.  Today you need a government permission slip of some kind to do almost anything, and these slips are often expensive, time consuming to acquire, and are just a huge hassle.  I mean, why do you need a permission slip to paint homes?  Why do you need a license to trim people’s hedges?  To watch small kids in a daycare?  It’s stupid.  A struggling family could make an extra $30,000-$40,000 doing handyman work and painting, but nope.  You don’t have your license!

You may be thinking that these licenses are there to protect the public and ensure quality of service, such as filtering out charlatans and quacks, but you’d be very wrong.  As Dr. Morris Kleiner of the University of Minnesota, a preeminent researcher on licensing, points out in the above video, these licenses do next to nothing.  The only ones who benefit from the licenses are those who are able to afford the license fees and waste the time to get them, especially when potential competitors cannot, giving certain businesses an edge over their competition.

Here’s an example.  Here are some amazing cooks, wanting to earn a living sharing their good food, and customers are buying it up!  The problem is, they’re operating their small restaurants out of home-made food-trucks. They just pull up somewhere in town and start serving food, and the people love it.  But then the government steps in and shuts them down.  The local restaurants can’t have competition from these guys!  They call call their buddies in the local government and ask them to run these pests away!

Or maybe you’re like me and would like to eat homegrown food from local farmers in your area.  Too bad!  The government has banned these farmers from advertising.  If they even try to tell you they exist, they will incur huge fines.  The big mega-farms can’t have competition from local farmers!

Or take this next business.  Here’s a young guy wanting to earn a living sharing his passion selling retro video games. He invested in a giant inflatable Mario and the customers were pouring in.  Then some snobby person from the city thought it looked tacky and they made him take it down.  Having a beautiful city means more than the welfare of the actual people living there.  Can’t advertise unless you do it the way they tell you to, which often means buying an expensive billboard on some special sign post they designate, and they’ll charge you all kinds of money for the privilege.  Only the already successful, richer businesses can afford it, and to the rest, it’s a polite way of giving you the middle finger.  Just another way they hold people down.

I feel especially bad for this next guy.  Here’s a foreigner who came here with a dream of a better life.  He saved, worked hard, and over time built up a small chain of laundromats.  Good for him.  But can he just be left to enjoy the fruits of his labor?  Nope!  The police started seeing some poorer, shady customers using his laundromats, so they went undercover and tried selling them illegal merchandise, hoping to bust them; unfortunately, some of these customers took the bait, and who pays?  For some strange reason, the laundromat owner.  The government used “nuisance” laws against him, and treated his business the same way they would a street corner that solicits prostitutes!  Now the police are threatening to shut down the business, taking everything this man has worked his whole life to build.  And for what?  He didn’t do anything!  And take a look at his laundromat.  The machines are new, the place is clean.  Leave the guy alone!

You don’t even have to be a business to be hassled by the control system.  Take my home state of Missouri.  Like everywhere else, we have politicians spending too much money, so the state is resorting to creative ways to increase tax revenues.  Now we have police going around, issuing fines for everything, and how could anyone ever keep up with the ever-changing, totally arbitrary, nonsensical rules?  In this next video, we find an impoverished family being fined for having BBQs in the yard, for lacking curtains, for having mismatched blinds, and for not having a screen door.  What in the world.  Already struggling to get by?  Great.  Now let’s make your life even more difficult by giving you expensive fines.  And what’s even more sad is these folks didn’t have the money to pay the fines so they had to take out payday loans, which have crazy interest rates, further impoverishing this family.  Leave them alone!

I could go on and on about this stuff.  I can’t stand it.  Years ago my parents tried to open a daycare within their church.  Then some government person came in and kept asking them to change this, change that, and on and on.  Over the course of two years, my parents had to spend tens of thousands of dollars to renovate the church building, which the daycare was not bringing in.  The business went under, not because the children’s parents were unhappy with the service, but because of the government.

It’s sad to see people being held down when they’re trying to pull themselves up by their bootstraps.  But in my opinion, governments more often than not serve the interests of the rich and elite, both locally and federally.  They use these sorts of regulations and arbitrary rules to hold the rest of us down and eliminate competition.

Freeing Ourselves From Compulsion

The most profound things in life are also the most simple.  I’m going to pose a very simple, yet profound challenge for you.  Can you just sit down someplace in your home, or the park, or wherever, and for one hour do absolutely nothing?  In this challenge, you’re not allowed to do anything as you sit there.  No goofing off on your phone.  No daydreaming.  Not thinking at all, especially worrying about all the things you “need” to be doing.  Can you just sit there, doing nothing, thinking nothing, and just be there where you’re sitting?

I can pretty much guarantee you that if you haven’t been practicing this, and learning techniques about how to free yourself from compulsion, it’ll be difficult.  Your mind will wander all over the place, mostly worrying, probably about things you’ve sat and thought about a million times before.  You’ll get compulsive urges to look at your phone, check Facebook, read the news, or whatever it may be.  You’ll get pangs of hunger, and then want to eat snacks, sip soda, or something.  There’s always a distraction, always some compulsive behavior, generated by the brain, which yanks you somewhere and you follow it, no matter if it’s making you depressed, ruining some aspect of your life, or keeping you from doing things that are actually worthwhile.  The human brain is this compulsive mess, and it bombards us with mostly stupidity, all the time.

You know why this is important?  Maybe you don’t, so I’ll tell you.  This is about taking control of your life.  It’s about actually being in the driver’s seat of your life, instead of being driven by every random compulsion your brain generates.

Just to give a few random examples, with some, when a situation arises which makes them nervous, they have to have their cigarette, even when it destroys their body.  With others its food.  They just can’t stop eating.  I’ve heard overweight people tell me, “This is one of the few joys I have in life.  This food!”  They look at their body and they’re morbidly obese, but they keep putting food in their mouths, even when they have all kinds of health problems.  To some its alcohol or marijuana.  Something in life is making them upset, nervous, or bored, and they have to go to that substance.  Compulsive negative thoughts must be combated by some substance to drown it out, or distractive compulsive behavior to compensate.  Their mind just goes nonstop, mostly negative thoughts filled with worry, despair, anger, and depression, like a recording playing over and over and over.  Then they have to run from it, and it just goes on and on.

And you know the worst part of it?  The brain never stops, so if you always have to run from its compulsive thoughts and emotions, they are in total control of your life.  You’ll go to work on something important to you, or try to spend time with your kids, or whatever, and then uh oh, the compulsion’s here.  Oh no, now what do you do?  I need my distraction!  I need my mind numbing substance!  I can’t just sit here, I’m bored!  This is terrible!  I need something to do!  I’m going crazy!  So off you go, reacting to random compulsions instead focusing your mind and efforts, and directing your life.

This is why just being able to sit in one place, doing nothing, is so profound.  It’s not that sitting is profound.  It’s about being totally free of compulsion and distraction.  All the random desires of the body have been put under control.  When you see some Yogi mystic sitting beside a temple, meditating, doing nothing for an entire afternoon, it’s profound because they’ve liberated themselves from all the passions and desires of this world.  The body’s compulsive passions and thoughts are a form of slavery which they are delivered from.

Take this next video for instance.  Sadhguru is a Yogi master who teaches meditative practices to help one achieve peace of mind.  Someone in the audience asks him why these Yogi men, living in the mountains and temples are so often celibates.  What’s wrong with sex?

He tells them there’s nothing wrong with sex.  Being a celibate has nothing to do with abstaining from sex, it’s about not needing sex to be happy and fulfilled.  To these Yogi masters, sex is simply irrelevant.  That’s hard for our society to understand because we’re obsessed with sex.  How many of us have seen our friends date the “wrong” man or woman, all because our friend was caught up in sexual attraction?  She’s hell incarnate and he’s a walking demon, and that makes our friend miserable, but look at that face and body!  She’s all he thinks he needs!  Our friend’s sex drive is leading him down a path of misery.  It’s no different than an obese person ordering a few large Domino’s pizzas for dinner, chowing down.  So he tells you, “Sure I have high blood pressure, I’m fifty pounds overweight, and have stones in my gall bladder from this grease, but a man’s got to eat doesn’t he!?”  Keep telling yourself that, but you know and I know that you should be eating better.

Do you see why this is a big deal yet?  If you can sit for an hour, in one place, and not let all the tugs and pulls of the mind and body dictate your behavior, you are once again in control!  If you can do this all afternoon, just sitting on the porch, watching the birds, thinking and doing nothing, then wow, you’ve made it!  That’s because deep down within us is our core consciousness, the real reality.  It’s already at peace.  It already has all it needs.  It’s always been there, and will continue to be there.  You’ve just always been running away from it.  To deliver yourself, you only need tap into it and it’s like, oh, this is nice, I never needed all the things I thought I needed after all!

You can have a big house, a small house, a brand new sports car, or no car, a significant other, no significant other, a good job, a crappy job, lots of friends, no friends, a wonderful family, or no family, it doesn’t matter if you know how to quiet your mind.  All of these desires, these thoughts of what you think you need, they’re illusions, they’re ghosts, they’re not real.

You see why this is such a huge deal yet?  How many of us went to college for years, studying things we don’t care about, all in hopes to land a “good” job, to earn all this money to buy  all these things we never needed in the first place.  We told ourselves that we won’t be happy unless we have a certain level of material comfort and success.  These things are supposed to bring peace of mind, but it’s a lie, just like everything else in this world.  It’s all lies.

One of my professors who I did research with was trying to hook me up with a job working in military technology for the U.S. Air Force.  One of his former students graduated a few years back and has been working for them and is now making close to a quarter million dollars a year.  So after I completed my thesis paper they were going to hook me up with a job there.  Just drowning in money.  But I didn’t take the job.  What!?  Who wouldn’t want to make $25,000 a month and work on state of the art technology!?  What are you doing Jason?

*Shrugs*  You know what job I did take?  I work as a lecturer in math and physics, teaching young undergrads the fundamentals of math and physics, and go to the workshops and help students solve problems.  I’m a teacher.  I may make way less money, but you know what really fascinated me?  That former student making all that money, when asked about his massive paychecks, you know what he said?  He said he has no idea what to even do with all the money.  When I sit and think about it, at this point in my life, I honestly don’t have any use for all that money either, so why take on a job that’s more stressful and builds weapons which are used to forcefully used to impose one’s will upon another in warfare? I’m not about force and enslavement, I’m about working together, freedom and expression of individuality.

But Jason, you could own a giant mansion with twenty bedrooms and six bathrooms, and an inground pool, and your own private gym, and your own private theater, and everything else.  Then you can buy some overpriced car and be a big deal!  Wouldn’t that be cool!  *Shrugs*  I don’t mind hopping in my Jeep Patriot and driving a few minutes to the gym.  I don’t really watch movies; not very often anyway.  The university has a giant olympic sized swimming pool I can swim in at any time for free.  As for the giant house, I don’t have any need for all those rooms.  All I need is a bedroom, a closet, a larger room for my computer and video games, enough space to have friends over to play video games with and hang out, a guest room for when friends need to stay with me, a kitchen, bathroom, a basement to store stuff.  Check.  Well that’s about all I really need.  The rest isn’t really of any value to me.

The same goes for all sorts of things in life.  People are always asking me when I’m going to get married.  When asked, I may lightheartedly joke about it, but deep down, my real answer is that I honestly don’t care.  That’s not a depressing “I don’t care, what’s the use.”  It’s a “I’m already fine as is.”  And the funny thing is, now that I don’t have any strong desire for marriage, and am content within myself, I’m actually at a place where I’d probably be a wonderful husband.  I’m at a place in life where I’m “full” and am more about giving than taking.  It’d be more about, “What can I do to make your life better”, than “Here’s all the things you will do for me.”  I suppose it’d be nice to have help doing all the little things in life, like getting groceries, running errands, etc., but I don’t have any problems doing it myself.

My goals at this point in life do not involve careers, money, relationships, family, or anything like that.  To some this may sound strange, but as I journey down this road of peace of mind, my goal has been to connect more and more with what one might refer to as higher consciousness, or the higher self.  Christians would call this the Holy Spirit, Buddhists and Hindus the ‘Atman’.  I’m working to develop a deeper relationship and understanding of what some circles refer to as God, or others as Brahman, the infinite, eternal truth and bliss which is unchanging, yet is the cause of all change, which it seems to me exists both deep within me, and also without.  If you want to practice this state of mind, when you look at another person, see them as the Ultimate Reality/God/Creator.  When you look at yourself in the mirror, see the Ultimate.  When you see the world around you, see it as an aspect of the Ultimate.

There are aspects of consciousness and existence within me which need further understood and explored.  The Tibetian Book of the Dead talks about entering the clear light upon death and to avoid the duller lights, even when they’re easier to look at.  That’s where I’m going, connecting with that brilliant eternal radiance, as much as possible in this life, and upon death, whatever of mind/spirit/existence remains of me, I’m going back to that light.  I’m lovingly detaching, if that makes any sense.

This may sound superstitious to a lot of you.  But as I’ve developed a relationship with this… higher self… I call on it all the time.  I ask for my mind to be cleared, for peace and silent happiness to fill me and be with me, and for my emotions to balance; I quiet my mind and focus on that intention, and it happens.  It used to just happen sometimes.  Now it happens EVERY time.  If I start feeling emotions that are unpleasant, I go back to that place.  I want clear, brilliant silence.  You may say, Jason, that doesn’t happen.  You can’t just feel like crap inside, and then focus on some intention and your entire mind and emotions clear, and you’re left at peace.  That isn’t real!

*Shrugs*  Say what you want.  Maybe it’s not real to you.  It works for me.  You can’t tell me it’s not real at this point.  I do this over and over and over again.  The world is still a chaotic mess, but it bothers me less and less each day.  Like I’ve mentioned in past posts, I’ve unclogged a lot of the gunk in my … mental/spiritual pipes.

This morning I was quite proud of myself.  I needed a signature from one of the physics professors on campus, and I stopped by his office.  I then ran into someone in the hallway who told me he wouldn’t be in for about an hour.  I thought, well, I could go home, and then come back, or maybe I’ll use this as an opportunity to practice clearing my mind and just being present.  So I leaned against the wall, and for about thirty minutes (he showed up earlier than expected) I did nothing.  I just sat against the brick wall, doing nothing, thinking nothing, just observing the room I was in, feeling the texture of the bricks along my back, moving my toes around within my shoes and enjoying the experience.

To many this sounds boring.  I should’ve loaded a game up on my phone!  I should’ve read news articles!  I should make the most of my time!  But I ask you, why?  You know why you think that?  You think that if you just sit there, avoiding the present moment, you’re going to be bored.  Boredom is horrible and must be avoided at all costs!  But in actuality, if you’re really “present” in that moment, thinking nothing, there’s absolutely no problem.  If you know how to be present, you’re not happy, nor are you sad.  You’re just there and the room is just there.  That moment is there, and you are there in it.  Nothing more, nothing less.  It’s no unpleasantness at all; there’s no suffering there.  It’s quite nice.

I want to be silent and at total peace within myself.  I want to be free of compulsion and disarray.  I’m getting better everyday.