An Aum Dream

Last night, I was sitting at my bedside chanting “Aum”, over and over, meditating, and fell asleep.  My mind entered something akin to a dream, where I was at peace with God in a vast, empty space.  In this space all of God’s powers were my own though nothing in particular was happening.  Then a soul, asleep on Earth, flew out of his body and entered my space.  His thoughts began manifesting and I allowed it.

He was sitting on cold concrete courthouse steps, holding (what I believe to be) divorce papers.  He was totally out of it, staring out onto the parking lot.  I was filled with compassion for this man and I began to take over his dream.   As an invisible background narrator, I bellowed out in a deep voice, “And lo, the man decided to reclaim the woman he’d lost, and nothing in the world could stop him!”  I manifested a powerful motorcycle, pushed him up onto his feet and onto this bike, and then floored the accelerator.  The man went off popping a wheelie, squealing tires, leaving behind a large cloud of smoke.  He zoomed off down the street at terrifying speeds.

All the forces of this Earth tried to stop him, but were unable to.  The police showed up, but he easily blazed by every road-block and outwitted them.  The military and swat teams got involved, but they too were unable to stop this man.  Hoping I’d cheered him up a little, I gave him control of the “dream” again.

Shortly thereafter he took up arms and manifested members of his family.  They may have been his ex’s family, I don’t know.  He began killing them mercilessly.  I watched on with sympathy and compassion, but felt it needed to end.  I then manifested my body, took his hand, and pushed the gun down, but he took no notice of me.  I took over the “dream”, I raised the illusory family members back to their feet, unharmed, and I hugged the man, saying, “Ok, that’s enough.”

Then I woke up.

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The Gnostic Journey Into The Clear Light

This post is supplementary to the post I made a few days ago.  You might be interested to hear that within the Gnostic texts, the Apostle Paul wrote a guide to crossing the spiritual planes at death, and how to deal with the deceptive beings you may encounter.  It has parallels with the Tibetan Book of the Dead, which I find really interesting.  He stresses to avoid taking on another physical reincarnation and to keep pressing toward the clear light, seeking reunion with the infinite.  These early Christian scriptures never found their way into the everyday canon Bible, but thankfully a stray copy survived in a clay jar deep within a cave, only discovered within the last hundred or so years.

There are many texts in the Nag Hammadi library addressing what happens when we die and what you should expect to experience when passing through the spirit world. These texts were written by the Apostle Paul, Jesus’ disciples, and others.  What fascinates me is that here we have Christian saints saying the same sorts of things as Buddhist monks, Hindu Yogi masters, occult literature, or even mystery schools, such as the Masonic literature, Kabbalah, and others.  Gnostic scriptures teach that when you die your spirit will be released from your body.  At this point, if you wish to relieve yourself of suffering and stop the cycle of physical rebirth, you are to return to the Divine Father who exists within the clear infinite light.  The central message isn’t much different from say what you’d read about from Buddhist monks in the Tibetan Book of the Dead.

O nobly-born (so and so by name), the time hath now come for thee to seek the Path [in reality]. Thy breathing is about to cease. Thy guru hath set thee face to face before with the Clear Light; and now thou art about to experience it in its Reality in the Bardo state, wherein all things are like the void and cloudless sky, and the naked, spotless intellect is like unto a transparent vacuum without circumference or centre. At this moment, know thou thyself; and abide in that state. I, too, at this time, am setting thee face to face.

– Tibetan Book Of The Dead

These formerly lost texts teach that the body and brain are filters and your goal is to remove these filters, as much as possible, even while you’re alive.  These filters are the “fall” you so often hear about.  At death, these filters are down, or at least far more “down” than they are now, depending on what you choose to do.  So what are you going to perceive once all filters are removed?  Yourself.  Your REAL identity.  Books such as the Bible and others teach that we were made in the image of God.  So that’s what the clear light is; it’s the emanations and central power coming from the God-like being that you/we actually are, deep down in our core being.  When you die and the filters come down, your core essence will reveal itself to you and it’s intense.  It appears as this infinite power and it will begin flooding into your consciousness.  Now if you don’t know what this is, and don’t recognize it as yourself, you’re going to turn away from it within your mind and run away, so to speak.  You’ll think, “Oh no, there’s the clear light!  It’s so bright!  It’s scary!  I don’t want to die, I don’t want to dissolve into nothing!”  That’s because it is a higher plane which transcends normal individuality and ego as we experience it now, so you feel that your identity is dissolving away; it’s scary to many and they run away.  They turn away from the fullness of their own being.  In the words of the Tibetan book of the Dead, they’re then drawn toward the lesser lights.  They’re falling and if they keep falling, they’ll end up back in physicality.

So what do these Tibetan Buddhist monks say happens if you don’t enter the clear light? You haven’t missed your chance, yet, but you’re going to encounter the Peaceful and Wrathful Deities and have to navigate through their little maze in the heavenly/astral planes.

Basically your fears and beliefs will begin to manifest because you’re on spiritual planes now, and in these domains your thoughts manifest.  From what I’ve gathered, when multiple spiritual beings exist in the same space within spiritual planes, manifested forms and experiences must be agreed upon, but if you don’t know this, these beings can have great power over you.  They may start manifesting terrible things around you, and if you don’t know how this all works, you don’t know that you have the power to make it stop.  These early Christian Gnostic texts claim that upon death, these deceptive spiritual beings on these planes can now swoop in on you, and while you’re disoriented at death, they want to confuse and deceive you.  The Apostle Paul wrote about dangers you’ll encounter with these entities, and how to avoid them.  It’s interesting information because, like I said earlier, it lines up perfectly with what I’ve studied in near death experiences.  Paul says these entities are going to try to confuse you, they’re going to lie to you about who you are, and they’re going to try to con you into reincarnating into physicality.  In these texts, Paul teaches that Jesus was a messenger, teaching a way back to the Father (the source, infinity) through rejection of this archon afterlife process (more about this as we go on) and a refusal to renter physicality.

In this first passage, Paul talks about a vision he had of a person dying; this poor soul didn’t understand what was going on. These deceptive entities descend on him, they pull him up into a heavenly realm, they guilt-trip him, confuse him, tell him he needs to work off some bad karma, and after quite a painful ordeal, they shove him back into another physical body.

But I saw in the fourth heaven according to class – I saw the angels resembling gods, the angels bringing a soul out of the land of the dead. They placed it at the gate of the fourth heaven. And the angels were whipping it. The soul spoke, saying, “What sin was it that I committed in the world?” The toll-collector who dwells in the fourth heaven replied, saying, “It was not right to commit all those lawless deeds that are in the world of the dead”. The soul replied, saying, “Bring witnesses! Let them show you in what body I committed lawless deeds. Do you wish to bring a book to read from?”

And the three witnesses came. The first spoke, saying, “Was I not in the body the second hour […]? I rose up against you until you fell into anger and rage and envy.” And the second spoke, saying, “Was I not in the world? And I entered at the fifth hour, and I saw you and desired you. And behold, then, now I charge you with the murders you committed.” The third spoke, saying, “Did I not come to you at the twelfth hour of the day when the sun was about to set? I gave you darkness until you should accomplish your sins.” When the soul heard these things, it gazed downward in sorrow. And then it gazed upward. It was cast down. The soul that had been cast down went to a body which had been prepared for it. And behold, its witnesses were finished.

Growing up in church, I was always told that once you died, your spirit/soul would be taken before the Father, the infinite source of the universe, and the acts of your life would be judged.  If you were “saved”, you would go to heaven, and if not, you’d go to hell.  These early Gnostic Christian texts are far different.  In these, the Father never judges anyone, or even wants us to be in this reality.  It doesn’t work that way at all.  Jesus came to save us, that is true, but not from “sin”.  He came to tell us this world is a big sham, run by deceptive entities, and that the Father wants us out of here.  We’re told the Father hates this realm and wants to destroy it as soon as we get out of here.  That’s a far different story.

These texts say we chose to come into this reality because we were deceived by the creators (the archons) of this false reality.  These deceptive entities told us that the Father was witholding special knowledge from us, so we were curious and decided to take the plunge into this physical world.  In order to learn these lessons, we were further told we had to go through the “sea of forgetfulness”, forgetting who we really are.  Once we agreed, they had us.  Ever since then, we’ve been reincarnating in this physical world, over and over, forgetting what exists outside of this place.  Each time we die, our spirit is once again released, and these archons have been swooping down on us, deceiving us again and again to come back here.  The poor soul Paul talked about was just another victim of this big deception.

According to these texts, even if you lived a good life, when you die and are trying to escape this place, these archons are swoop in, surround you, and tell you, “Don’t you remember all the nasty things you did in past lives?”  And you’ll be like, “What are you talking about?  I don’t remember any of this.  What is this?”  But they’re going to create illusions, false witnesses will spring up, and they’re going to have false books filled with these supposed horrible deeds you did.  Then they’re going to tell you that you can’t leave now, you’re not worthy to leave!  You need to make up for your past deeds and make things right!  This may sound crazy, but I remember watching a Youtube video of a woman sharing her near death experience.  She was a very spiritual woman who considered herself a Buddhist.  As she told of her experience, she sat there baffled, sharing that in her NDE these false witnesses came out of nowhere, claiming she was awful and did all these terrible things, exclaiming, “Don’t you remember the awful things you did to us!  And you’re just going to ignore it all?  Aren’t you ASHAMED!”  That woman didn’t buy into it, told them to buzz off, and eventually they left her alone.  But, if you buy into it like that guy the Apostle Paul talked about did, they’re going to prepare you another physical body to work off “karma”, or whatever nonsense they have in mind, and you’ll be crammed right back into physicality, right back into more suffering.

If you wised up a little during your life and didn’t buy into the whole “sin” thing so many religions and cultures tried to indoctrinate you with, next they will come at you from other angles.  Paul says that deities will try to claim that physicality is all part of a deep and long spiritual journey, that they’re here to help, and it’s important that these higher divine beings are with you to review your life;  it’s time to put it all into context, evaluate performance, and make recommendations.  After this life review, they’re going to try to convince you that if you’re wanting to evolve spiritually, there are certain physical realms that you are currently worthy of, or that offer the best lessons for where you’re currently at.  It’s all about spiritual evolution!

Then I gazed upward and saw the Spirit saying to me, “Paul, come! Proceed toward me!”. Then as I went, the gate opened, and I went up to the fifth heaven. And I saw my fellow apostles going with me while the Spirit accompanied us. And I saw a great angel in the fifth heaven holding an iron rod in his hand. There were three other angels with him, and I stared into their faces. But they were rivalling each other, with whips in their hands, goading the souls on to the judgment. But I went with the Spirit and the gate opened for me.

Then we went up to the sixth heaven. And I saw my fellow apostles going with me, and the Holy Spirit was leading me before them. And I gazed up on high and saw a great light shining down on the sixth heaven. I spoke, saying to the toll-collector who was in the sixth heaven, “Open to me and the Holy Spirit who is before me.” He opened to me.

Keyword to notice there is goading.  These archons were goading these recently deceased souls down certain paths.  “Goading” means to provoke by criticism and direct them down a certain path with that criticism.  They use guilt, shame, inadequacy, confusion, and those sorts of tactics.  The toll collector only lets by those who are worthy.  They tell ya, you know what, we’ve planned out your next life, and I know, it looks pretty terrible, but it’s for your own good.  These difficult experiences are going to teach you patience, courage, kindness, and other virtues.  So take your medicine!  That’s why the Gnostic Jesus said, “Never do what you hate.”  If you don’t want to do it, don’t let them convince you that you need to do it for your own good.  You have to remember that you’re already perfect, that good and evil is a false duality, and that it’s all an illusion.  That was the true message the Gnostic Christ brought.  Christ taught that you’re not guilty of anything, don’t buy into “sin” or “karma”, and just return to the realms of the Infinite source where you will be greeted warmly, regardless of what happened here on Earth; it’s irrelevant.  The Father wants your suffering in physicality to end.

So what do you do when you encounter these beings?  Basically, you tell them you’ve connected with your higher self, that you’re loved, the Holy Spirit is within you, and that you’re already perfect.  You tell them duality is an illusion, not to mention that what you’re currently perceiving is also an illusion.  The Tibetan monks say everything you’re experiencing at this point is emanating from your own mind, whereas Paul seemed to make them out to be beings who existed outside of yourself, but both mention the same sorts of encounters.  These beings are your own fears, your own beliefs, and your own subconscious ideas manifesting.  You have to realize that life was just a movie, and tell these beings that you’re returning to the clear light with the Divine Infinite Father (source) where you originally come from.  Respectfully ask them to move so that you can pass through.  If you realize and know who you are, they can’t hold you any longer, and you’re allowed to pass.

But they have one last ace up their sleeve.  Paul says these archons will create a false heaven, and it will be very nice.  They’ll appear to you as Jesus, Allah, a bearded man on a throne of light, or Krishna, or Shiva, or whoever you believe in.  They’ll then say, “This is heaven and am I your God!”  This stage is for people who believed there’s a special sort of “human” spirit and that’s what they’re created to be.  They don’t realize that at this level of existence, no being rules over them.  These deceased folks have failed to realize that they are actually a much purer consciousness that has infinite power and can take on limitless forms and identities.  If during your life you were caught up in the religious nonsense all around you, then you’ll stay with this false God in the false heaven, along with many others.  While you’re there, these archons will continually work on you until they eventually convince you that you need to return to physicality to develop spiritually.

So what do you do if you end up in a false heaven with some being pretending to be God?  You resist, tell them you’re not buying the whole charade, that this realm is not the true clear infinite Light of the Father, and that you want by.  They’re going to then play dumb, saying, “What are you talking about?  This IS heaven.  I AM God.  Where do you expect to go?”  But you keep insisting that you’re passing by and going to the infinite divine clear light. They will then say, “So you see through the game?  So what.  How will escape!  Look at all this power we wield.  We have armies of angels to hold you back.  How can you possible get past all of us!”

Then we went up to the seventh heaven, and I saw an old man […] light and whose garment was white. His throne, which is in the seventh heaven, was brighter than the sun by seven times. The old man spoke, saying to me, “Where are you going, Paul? O blessed one and the one who was set apart from his mother`s womb.” But I looked at the Spirit, and he was nodding his head, saying to me, “Speak with him!”. And I replied, saying to the old man, “I am going to the place from which I came.” And the old man responded to me, “Where are you from?” But I replied, saying, “I am going down to the world of the dead in order to lead captive the captivity that was led captive in the captivity of Babylon.” The old man replied to me saying, “How will you be able to get away from me? Look and see the principalities and authorities.” The Spirit spoke, saying, “Give him the sign that you have, and he will open for you.” And then I gave him the sign. He turned his face downwards to his creation and to those who are his own authorities.

And then the <seventh> heaven opened and we went up to the Ogdoad. And I saw the twelve apostles. They greeted me, and we went up to the ninth heaven. I greeted all those who were in the ninth heaven, and we went up to the tenth heaven. And I greeted my fellow spirits.

How do you get through?  You call on your personal connection with your Atman, your higher self, and it will produce some sort of a sign, a special action, though I don’t know what exactly.  Since you’re the one dreaming all this up, it’s not like it matters.  At that point Paul says they will back off and let you go right on through into the clear light.  Like the Tibetan Book of the Dead says, know thyself.  When you know who you are, there’s no force that can stop you from returning to your fullness.

From what I gather from near death experiences, there’s no particular way that these events unfold because it’s all heavily dependent on your own beliefs.  All of this probably sounds quite nuts to most of you.  Strangely though, the more deeply you explore all of this, whether it be meditation masters such as Himalayan Yogis, Buddhist/Hindu monks, the Christian saints, out of body experiences, people who are put under hypnosis revealing experiences before they incarnated here, near death experiences, or even ancient mystery schools such as the Masons, Kabbalah, occult literature, and other sources, all of this stuff points to the same picture.  A lot of it is in coded language, but if you spend enough time with it, a particular picture comes into view.

Many believe that this world may be screwed up, but the heavens are perfect.  These ancient texts say you’re naive to believe that.  As above so below.

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A Different Jesus Than You’ve Heard About

Back in 1945, thirteen leather-bound papyrus codices were found bundled up in a sealed jar by a group of farmers who were digging deep within a cave in the Egyptian town of Nag Hammadi.  These texts are quite fascinating, especially the Gospel accounts which you’ve likely never read or even heard about.  These texts are filled with quotations and stories about Jesus and his disciples that are quite different from the ones you’ve read about in the Bible.  Though this “different” Jesus shares a lot of similarities with accounts from the Bible, in many core fundamental ways he is a totally different person.  So how are they different?

Let’s take a look at some of the verses found in the Gospel of Thomas.

14. Jesus said to them, “If you fast, you will bring sin upon yourselves, and if you pray, you will be condemned, and if you give to charity, you will harm your spirits.”

This Jesus is against prayer and fasting.  Don’t cry out to some external God for miracles or for help.  He teaches to tap into the divine energy within you and manifest your needs and desires as a child of the divine Father.  Being committed to this line of thinking, he feels charity is dangerous.  It’s not that it’s evil per say, and he doesn’t teach to ignore the suffering of others, but he’s giving a stark warning that when you give to others in need, it can limit the power they have within them to change their situation.  They can easily become dependent on you and they are held back, harming their spirit, never learning their own power.  He teaches that people live in poverty because they are poverty.

Jesus said, “If your leaders say to you, ‘Look, the (Father’s) kingdom is in the sky,’ then the birds of the sky will precede you. If they say to you, ‘It is in the sea,’ then the fish will precede you. Rather, the (Father’s) kingdom is within you and it is outside you.  When you know yourselves, then you will be known, and you will understand that you are children of the living Father. But if you do not know yourselves, then you live in poverty, and you are the poverty.”

This Jesus teaches that you should never do anything you hate.  Not a single thing.  If you dislike doing it, don’t do it.  It’s beneath you as a child of the divine Father.  Don’t sit around begging for things, suffering for no reason; leave this place.  Don’t feel you need to save this world, or help “fix” things.  Once the divine children leave this place, the Father plans to burn this entire universe to the ground.  He teaches for you to enter the divine Light, refuse to take on a physical form, and enter the perfected realms of the infinite Father.  Nobody has to suffer in any way.  All you have to do is leave the physical realm and enter the realms the Father intended for us to live in; there is no suffering there.  These scriptures teach that this reality is a botched mistake that shouldn’t exist.  He teaches that there are no worthwhile lessons to learn through suffering.  It’s not the way the Father’s kingdom operates, and we are in a messed up reality that is not operating according to the divine kingdom’s principles.  He wants us out of here, but it’s our choice whether or not we remain in physicality.  Also, in the higher realms your thoughts and emotions will be known to all, so there’s no reason to pretend.  You don’t have to pretend to love things you don’t love, or strive for some “holiness” through sacrifice.  There is no sacrifice, because if you realize the true power within, you have access to all things.  The same goes for everyone else.  There’s no reason for you or anyone else to go without anything you desire.  The same goes for food.  Eat anything you want.  As a divine child of the Father, if you eat an animal and it becomes you, lucky for it!  Now it too has become divine, just as you are.

6. His disciples asked him and said to him, “Do you want us to fast? How should we pray? Should we give to charity? What diet should we observe?”  Jesus said, “Don’t lie, and don’t do what you hate, because all things are disclosed before heaven. After all, there is nothing hidden that will not be revealed, and there is nothing covered up that will remain undisclosed.” 7. Jesus said, “Lucky is the lion that the human will eat, so that the lion becomes human. And foul is the human that the lion will eat, and the lion still will become human.”

This Jesus was not the prince of peace.  He declared that this world was run by deceptive spirits and created by mistake, and shouldn’t exist.  He was at war against it, and wanted all divine beings to awaken to who they are and return to the Light of the divine Father, where they can live in perfection, be at rest, and have all they desire.  He taught that it was so important to connect to this inner light within you and return to the Father, that you must even forsake your own family if they are holding you back.  That’s because if you have all things within you, do you really lose your family?  No.  You don’t ever lose anything.

16. Jesus said, “Perhaps people think that I have come to cast peace upon the world. They do not know that I have come to cast conflicts upon the earth: fire, sword, war.  For there will be five in a house: there’ll be three against two and two against three, father against son and son against father, and they will stand alone.”

This Jesus never died on a cross and never spoke of blood sacrifice.  He’s against sacrifice altogether.  He declared there are children of the Light, true sons and daughters of the divine Light, and some of them had descended into this deceptive world and forgotten who they are.  He came to deliver those people from suffering and help them return.  He is always saying things like, “To him who has ears let them hear”, or “Let there be among you a person who understands.”  He’s declaring that many of the people living in this place are not as they appear; they lack something that you have.  They lack that inner light, so they’re not even capable of perceiving the words he’s saying.

50. Jesus said, “If they say to you, ‘Where have you come from?’ say to them, ‘We have come from the light, from the place where the light came into being by itself, established [itself], and appeared in their image.’ If they say to you, ‘Is it you?’ say, ‘We are its children, and we are the chosen of the living Father.’ If they ask you, ‘What is the evidence of your Father in you?’ say to them, ‘It is motion and rest.'”
[ Note:  The divine children come from somewhere else and don’t belong here. ]

“19. Jesus said, “Congratulations to the one who came into being before coming into being.”
[ Note: The divine children existed before they were born and can never die. ]

23. Jesus said, “I shall choose you, one from a thousand and two from ten thousand, and they will stand as a single one.”
[ Note: Most living on this Earth are not divine children.  They are extremely rare.  When they return to the Light, they share the infinite mind of God. ]

107. Jesus said, “The (Father’s) kingdom is like a shepherd who had a hundred sheep. One of them, the largest, went astray. He left the ninety-nine and looked for the one until he found it. After he had toiled, he said to the sheep, ‘I love you more than the ninety-nine.'”

Not all the people living in this place existed before their birth; most did not.  To the gnostics, the majority of humanity are soulless, consisting simply of their body; these beings were called “hylics”.  To the Gnostics, hylics were human beings that are purely physical machinations, governed solely by sense impressions and material wants and desires.  There wasn’t much hope for them beyond this life, though if they really strived, a soul may awaken within them.  Overall though, since they had no higher essence within them, death was their annihilation.

There are other classes of beings as well.  For example, the Gnostics believed there are many who are possessed by the deceptive fallen entities.  These beings live among us, appearing as humans, and they have turned their backs to the Light.  These beings are immortal, but they have an inferior destiny awaiting them.  Their chief leader is the demiurge, a powerful albeit very flawed divine being who is the creator of the material world.  This demiurge further created beings called “archons” (or the “governors”) who are in charge of physical reality, one of their primary jobs being to enslave the divine children within physicality.  These archons exist both within and outside this “fake” world we live in.

A final class of beings were called “psychic”.  Apparently all matter is divine, even in this carcass of a world, and all matter has a tendency to gravitate toward awareness of the ultimate;  all matter is conscious to a degree with a desire to reconnect with the Light and the Infinite/Ultimate.  So say we have a simple spirit of a lobster or something.  It may reincarnate and reincarnate and reincarnate, slowly becoming more and more self-aware, until finally incarnating into a human being.  It has no awareness of anything beyond this physical world, at least not yet.  However, it does have a chance to awaken during its life/lives as a human, realizing that it’s part of something large.  They too will have a chance to enter the Light.  They only have to awaken, and upon death, desire to be with God and the Light.

29. Jesus said, “If the flesh came into being because of spirit, that is a marvel, but if spirit came into being because of the body, that is a marvel of marvels.  Yet I marvel at how this great wealth has come to dwell in this poverty.”

As for the deceptive entities in this world, who Jesus refers to as the “governors”, they are somehow feeding off the divine children and the “psychics” (lower spirits), exploiting them in some way by being here.  In some respect, these enslaved spirits are akin to farm animals.  Jesus specifically says the otherworldly entities feed on their carcasses (something having to do misery, sacrifice, and having taken on a physical form).  The governors feed off of some energy given off by the spirits when they suffer, or are in say in an animal body and are sacrificed.  That’s apparently why ancient religions were filled with human and animal sacrifice.  These otherworldly entities somehow received sustenance from that act.  But anyway, the Gnostic Jesus and his disciples warned that if you continue living in this place, you are a carcass which strange entities are feeding upon.  When you choose to live in a physical body in this place, you are choosing death.  These entities can only exploit you when you willingly choose to live here in a physical body.

60. He saw a Samaritan carrying a lamb and going to Judea. He said to his disciples, “that person … around the lamb.” They said to him, “So that he may kill it and eat it.” He said to them, “He will not eat it while it is alive, but only after he has killed it and it has become a carcass.”

They said, “Otherwise he can’t do it.”

He said to them, “So also with you, seek for yourselves a place for rest, or you might become a carcass and be eaten.”

This Jesus taught that the only way to find the Father was to abstain from the world.  You must silence your mind so that you can attune to this inner light within, and use it to connect back with the Father, the source.  He taught that this world was a dead carcass, and anyone who loves it will be forced to suffer by reincarnating in this poverty, over and over and over, until you give it up.  When you die, your spirit will be released from your body, but because you do not understand the Father and have not connected with the divine Light, you won’t know what to do, or you’ll be drawn back to this place by various desires.  In other words, you live in this poverty because you are this poverty.  You desire it, but you must rid yourself of desire for this place.

Jesus said, “If you do not fast from the world, you will not find the (Father’s) kingdom.”

56. Jesus said, “Whoever has come to know the world has discovered a carcass, and whoever has discovered a carcass, of that person the world is not worthy.”

87. Jesus said, “How miserable is the body that depends on a body, and how miserable is the soul that depends on these two.”

This Jesus taught that elites hold this knowledge back from the divine children, because they benefit from exploiting them here.

39. Jesus said, “The Pharisees and the scholars have taken the keys of knowledge and have hidden them. They have not entered nor have they allowed those who want to enter to do so.”

This Jesus taught that it’s alright to ridicule God, it’s even fine to ridicule the divine incarnation of Jesus, a son of God, but if you ridicule the Holy Spirit, your own personal inner connection to the divine Light, there’s no hope for you.  You’ll never find your way out of this place, and you’re stuck to live in this carcass and be fed upon.

44. Jesus said, “Whoever blasphemes against the Father will be forgiven, and whoever blasphemes against the son will be forgiven, but whoever blasphemes against the holy spirit will not be forgiven, either on earth or in heaven.”

So how will you know that you’ve found the divine Light?  If you think you’ve found the “truth” and you suffer in any way, are unhappy in any way, or are lacking in any way, you’ve found nothing at all.  Continue your search.

67. Jesus said, “Those who know all, but are lacking in themselves, are utterly lacking.”

He taught not look to anything external for salvation.  It’s only when you’ve reconnected with your divine nature and can manifest all your heart’s desires and lack nothing, then you’ve found where you belong.  If you don’t have this connection, you’re as good as dead. That’s the same reason he warned against the dangers of charity.

70. Jesus said, “If you bring forth what is within you, what you have will save you. If you do not have that within you, what you do not have within you [will] kill you.”

And when you do start to realize your inner potential, and can begin to change your destiny, and your course through this life, even if you manifest great wealth, power, or prestige, he taught to renounce it all.  It’s a giant pile of dung.  It’s not worthy of your time; this is especially true considering if you die and are filled with desires of this kind, it will draw you back to this place, and you will again take on a new carcass of flesh, and suffer and be fed upon.

110. Jesus said, “Let one who has found the world, and has become wealthy, renounce the world.”

112. Jesus said, “Damn the flesh that depends on the soul. Damn the soul that depends on the flesh.”

Damn the flesh that depends on the soul, meaning damn anyone who continues to manifest this physical reality using their divine powers, and damn any soul which desires this kind of reality.  It is evil and to be cast into the fire.  The Father (God) wants to burn up this realm, torch it, and burn it to the ground, but divine children are in here.  Get out so the Father can set it ablaze!

10. Jesus said, “I have cast fire upon the world, and look, I’m guarding it until it blazes.”

11. Jesus said, “This heaven will pass away, and the one above it will pass away.”

If you can believe this Jesus, we can’t blame God for this screwed up reality.  The Father had nothing to do with this place and wants to torch it.  It’s the divine children choosing to stay here that keeps it in existence, and some deceptive beings are struggling to keep them here. They keep them here by making them believe there’s nothing more, holding the truth from them, and deception.  They want them to focus on this reality, the carcass, and believe that it’s all they can know and that it’s all that exists.  The deceptive “governors” want all divine beings to believe that when you die, it’s the end.  This is all, according to the disciple Philip, to keep the divine children in filthy garments (physical bodies), and surround them with everything that is vile, enslave them, and feed off of them in some way (this feeding somehow being related to misery and sacrifice).

The rulers (archons) wanted to deceive man, since they saw that he had a kinship with those that are truly good. They took the name of those that are good and gave it to those that are not good, so that through the names they might deceive him and bind them to those that are not good. And afterward, what a favor they do for them! They make them be removed from those that are not good and place them among those that are good. These things they knew, for they wanted to take the free man and make him a slave to them forever.

These are powers which […] man, not wishing him to be saved, in order that they may […]. For if man is saved, there will not be any sacrifices […] and animals will not be offered to the powers. Indeed, the animals were the ones to whom they sacrificed. They were indeed offering them up alive, but when they offered them up, they died. As for man, they offered him up to God dead, and he lived.

– Gospel of Philip

I’d like to add a bit of things I’ve gathered from studying near death experiences, meditation, and out of body experiences.  So you die, believing that will be the end; you can be an atheist, agnostic, religious person, whoever.  You die, there is a separation from the physical body (meaning it’s no longer giving you sensory and other input), and you awaken, figuring out that you’re still alive; you may be surrounded by blackness, or maybe you’re hovering over your body, or maybe you’re manifesting all sorts of strange things with your random thoughts (another reason to learn to silence your mind), all of these situations are possible.  As an aside, apparently you don’t have to die to enter this state.  If you say enter a sensory deprivation chamber and clear your mind, or enter deep states of meditation, you will enter this same state of being which we typically refer to as “death”.  You just have to shift your focus of conscious attention away from the physical body and direct it inward.  That’s a bit of a tangent.  Either way, you’re dead and it’s not the end!  What do you do!  Where are you?  What is this place?  Why are you alive?  And as you’re waking up on the astral planes, disoriented, these deceptive beings swoop in on you.  They want to get you fast, before you can figure out where you are or what’s going on.  So here’s what I’ve been able to gather:  The deceptive ones create a fake tunnel of light, beam intense love emotion at you, shape-shift into your loved ones, religious deities, etc., and quickly approach you.  Then you think, ah, I’ve heard about the tunnel of light!  This must take me to heaven!  Oh, there’s mom and grandma!  They’re here to get me!  From what I’ve researched, these people are not who they appear to be.

Once you get there, the “governors” pretend to be religious teachers, angels, spiritual masters, and ascended ones.  Here they are, ready to help!  But this is only the beginning of their crafty deception.  Their one and only goal is to get you to AGREE to take on another physical reincarnation, either to return to your existing body, or for you to take on a new body.  They will use every trick in the book to convince you to willingly do so.  They’ll try guilt, especially if you believed in the concept of “sin”; they’ll tell you need to work off some bad karma, learn from your mistakes, that sort of thing.  Did you have drinking problems?  Well you need to experience that pain first hand in another life.  Your spouse will be an alcoholic, and you’ll have to try to help him or her through their addiction.  This will help you to learn better!  Or they’re going to attempt to convince you that you’re needed by your children, your husband, your wife, etc., and that you can make their lives so much better!  You must be there for them!  Or if you’re a thinking person, they’ll make living here on Earth out to be some deep spiritual journey.  Oh, this last life you were a rather balanced person, but in this next life, we’re going to give you a body that is far less emotional and far higher in intelligence, and by living in this new body, you will learn the importance of emotion and how intelligence isn’t everything.  Or vice versa, you’ll be very intuitive and emotional, but lack intelligence.  Heck, they’ll try to sign you up for a plan to try out both, a full blown reincarnational cycle, and then you can compare the two!  Think of that!  This next life you can be rich, or poor, or some average middle class person.  You can explore different ways of exerting power over others, from all sides. You can be a woman this time, or a man, and this time be beautiful or very ugly looking, and you’ll see first hand how people treat you and how important unconditional love is, how greed is bad, how there are positive aspects to everything, why we should share, etc.  Blah blah blah.  It’s all a deception.

Here’s Philip talking about the “governors” swooping down on you at death.  How do you escape the great powers?  Do not fear the body’s desires or love them.  You have to be above every desire and fear, and resist the great powers who come after you while you try to escape.  But if you choose to reincarnate, you remain dead, and your corpse will be eaten.

He who comes out of the world, and so can no longer be detained on the grounds that he was in the world, evidently is above the desire of the […] and fear. He is master over […]. He is superior to envy. If […] comes, they seize him and throttle him. And how will this one be able to escape the great […] powers? How will he be able to […]? There are some who say, “We are faithful” in order that […] the unclean spirits and the demons. For if they had the Holy Spirit, no unclean spirit would cleave to them. Fear not the flesh nor love it. If you fear it, it will gain mastery over you. If you love it, it will swallow and paralyze you.

This world is a corpse-eater. All the things eaten in it themselves die also. Truth is a life-eater. Therefore no one nourished by truth will die. It was from that place that Jesus came and brought food. To those who so desired, he gave life, that they might not die.

– Gospel of Philip

Jesus taught to never do anything you hate, and that physicality has nothing to teach you.  You’re not lacking in any way.  There’s no purpose for you being here.  There’s no spiritual “progress” to be found here.  If you get out of this physical realm, don’t worry about your children, your husband, your wife, the fate of the Earth, just get out of here.  When you reunite with the infinite, everything is there, including your family.  Lacking anything is an illusion.  These “governors” are liars.  Do not take on another physical reincarnation, under any circumstances, and do not let them convince you to come back.  Return to the divine clear Light.  Return the Father.  Return to the true, perfect realms of unconditional love, beauty, and joy, where all is available to you.

This all makes me think of an episode of Star Trek I saw a long time ago.  In that episode Captain Janeway had a near death experience and these “governors” tried to appear to her as her father, and tried to convince her to enter some matrix.  When she refused, the “governor” got mad, and told her that one day she would enter it, and that when she did, “they” would feed on her for a long, long time.  Watch this clip.

Notice Janeway says, “I’d rather remain here in spirit”, meaning she’s not physical at this point.  Then the Archon says to her, “The longer you stay here, the more difficult this process becomes.”  That’s because if you leave the physical behind, the longer you’re away from it, your emotional attachment to this place and the events that took place in your previous life/lives wanes, and you successfully leave it all behind.  They have to work fast.  I imagine that Nag Hammadi Jesus would tell you to step up in their face and tell them, “We can stand here all day, but I’ll never go with you!”

As I’ve stated, these “governors” are deceptive.  When you read near death accounts, many folks die on the operating table, or in a car crash, or however, they’re sucked up into this “divine” light (not the true clear light, but a lesser light created by the “governors”), and they meet some being who they believe to be God, Jesus, the angels, some loved one, whoever.  These folks want to stay in this wonderful place, but they’re told it is “not their time.”  They’re told there is some “purpose” they need to fulfill and they must “go back.”  Every time.  And you know what?  All these people come back, and twenty or even thirty years later, these folks are still wondering, “What was this purpose these divine beings spoke of?  I’ve never found it.”  That’s because there isn’t one.  The divine children do not belong here; the infinite Father does not want you here.

In The Dialogue of the Savior, Jesus spoke of what happens when you die; he said to avoid the deceptions of the “governors”, be wary of the things you create on this astral plane because your thoughts and fears manifest, and pass by all of it.  Return to the Father and the clear Light.  It’s unfortunate that a great deal of the text is missing.

“I will teach you. When the time of dissolution arrives, the first power of darkness will come upon you. Do not be afraid and say “Behold! The time has come!” But when you see a single staff … (3 lines indecipherable) … understand […] the work […] and the governors […] come upon you […]. Truly, fear is the power […]. So if you are going to be afraid of what is about to come upon you, it will engulf you. For there is not one among them who will spare you or show you mercy. But in this way, look at the […] in it, since you have mastered every word on earth. It […] take you up to the […] place where there is no rule […] tyrant. When you […] you will see those who […] and also […] tell you […] the reasoning power […] reasoning power […] place of truth […] but […]. But you […] truth, this […] living […] and your joy […]. So […] in order that […] your souls […] lest it […] the word […] raise… (3 lines indecipherable) … For the crossing place is fearful before you. But you, with a single mind, pass it by! For its depth is great; its height is enormous […] single mind […] and the fire […] […] all the powers […] you, they […] and the powers […] they […][…] soul […] […] in everyone […] you are the […] and […] forget […] son […] and you […][…].”

He’s trying to tell you to get to the clear light, where there are no more tyrants and evil rulers, and it’s a place of truth, life, and joy.  Whether strange beings approach you and threaten you, or you create scary things from your own imagination, do not fear them; resist and pass by them.  You’re in a realm where nothing can be done to you except by agreement, so don’t agree to things they tell you.  Make your way to the clear light that the Tibetan Book of the Dead talks about.  Delve deeper and deeper within, and let the light shine brighter and clearer.  Never agree to reincarnate and take on a physical form.

Matthew said, “Lord, I want to see that place of life, [the place] where there is no wickedness, but rather, there is pure light!”
The Lord said, “Brother Matthew, you will not be able to see it as long as you are carrying flesh around.”
Matthew said, “Lord, even if I will not be able to see it, let me know it!”
The Lord said, “Everyone who has known himself has seen it in everything given to him to do, […] and has come to […] it in his goodness.”

Judas said to Matthew, “We want to understand the sort of garments we are to be clothed with when we depart the decay of the flesh.”
The Lord said, “The governors and the administrators possess garments granted only for a time, which do not last. But you, as children of truth, not with these transitory garments are you to clothe ourselves. Rather, I say to you that you will become blessed when you strip yourselves! For it is no great thing […] outside.”

If you’re a divine child, you’re immortal and will never die.  You can’t be harmed and you’ll never run out of energy, but these … things … can feed off your sacrifices and misery which happens while in your physical “carcass”, at least so as long as you agree to live in this place.  It is time for you to rest.  There’s no need for you to work jobs you hate, live in bodies which decay, or continue to suffer.  It’s time to rest and enjoy the things we’ve always been entitled to.

The Savior said to his disciples, “Already the time has come, brothers, for us to abandon our labor and stand at rest. For whoever stands at rest will rest forever.”

This Jesus is quite different from the one you hear about in the Bible.  It’s all quite interesting.

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We Are From The Light

Somehow I started doodling and ended up with this.  Maybe I’ll share more of my doodles on here in the future?

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Thoughts On Creating Your Own Reality

As I’ve mentioned often on this blog lately, I’ve been pursuing peace of mind.  Naturally, wanting to learn more about this, I have been spending a lot of time on Youtube, searching for lectures and videos on the topic, hoping to educate and better myself.  I’ve come to learn that ‘peace of mind’ is a topic a lot of ‘spiritual’ gurus and religious types like to talk about, so naturally I’ve been stumbling into a lot of their videos.  I’ve noticed that many of them get into “you create your own reality”, or “ask the universe for what you want and you will receive it!”

Whoa, that sounds great!  I can create my own reality?  Fantastic!  Let’s get started.  First off, I want to live on a giant floating island, way up in the clouds, inside of a beautiful palace.  This palace will be surrounded by an elaborate garden, filled with flowers, colorful stones, and statues. 

I want there to be rivers filled with crystal clear water, so pure I can drink it, and for this water to flow off the sides of my floating island as giant waterfalls, much larger than Niagra Falls.  Oh, and for fun I’ll have all sorts of hot air balloons.  I’ll hop off into one from a castle terrace and float off into this giant expanse of beauty, filled with majestic flying creatures, all who radiate magnificent rays of color.

Shimmering lights, similar to the auroras, will fill the skies around my castle; down below we will find legions of stunningly beautiful, magical nymphs who take care of my castle, its garden, and my every need. Oh, and of course, they’re all madly in love with me!  These nymphs will be made of magical light and will be able to take on any appearance.  They will endlessly love me, and you too if you come to visit!  They will be beings of pure unconditional love.  They’ll be amazing, funny, and overall, just a blast to be around.  We’ll play games, sing, and dance.  Oh, and when we really want to be crazy, we’ll also be able to manipulate these lights up above the castle and form any play reality we wish; there will be endless games, anything we can imagine really.  Love, beauty, and endless fun, for everyone!

I want there to be a special background energy in this space.  Unconditional love, ecstasy, and joy will permeate everyone who enters this place.  They will feel welcome, happy to be there, and filled with creative energy, ready to play all the limitless games we will imagine to play together.  There won’t even be a place for toxic, nasty behavior, unless it’s an act, and if considerable suffering starts to happen in a particular game, we’ll always end it.    

This sounds great.  I’ve made my request, now … MANIFEST! … MAAANNNIFFFEESSSTTTT NNOOOWWWW!  *waves finger around like a wand*

Nothing happened.

Oh, wait a minute.  I thought I could create my own reality?  What kind of scam are you pulling here?  Oh, I can only choose to create within extremely lame limitations.  Oh, I have a choice, but it’s only between this boring job and that boring job, neither of which are any fun to do?  Oh and to accomplish or do anything worth doing, there will be extreme suffering and tedium galore, otherwise you’ll say I lacked “faith”?  Oh, and I can choose between this little box or that little box to live in, neither or which are particularly impressive.  I suppose there are choices, but they’re all lame choices.

What do I want to do?  All the things in my imagination which aren’t even possible in this place.  I want to build a fantasy airship and float off into an epic adventure.  I want to build and race futuristic flying cars at supersonic speeds on strange race tracks floating in space.  I want to ride on the back of a giant, magical, talking panther in a majestic forest and romance a beautiful princess as I defend her from goblins and somehow help her save her kingdom from ruin.  I don’t know, something!  

Create my own reality?  If I’m stuck in this … place … whatever it is, I’d just play and create video games, lift weights with the guys, play sports, maybe learn to play the piano, compose some music, I don’t know, fun stuff like that.  Who knows, I even liked to draw in the past.  I think it’s cool to express this neat stuff in your imagination so others can experience it, at least in some way.  But my biggest problem has been that the things I really find interesting and enjoy doing, you can rarely if ever earn money doing it.  So maybe I should practice manifesting bazillions of dollars, so I can liberate myself and all my friends, and we’ll do fun stuff.  Yay!  But isn’t that what everyone pretty much dreams of?  That’s why there’s so much greed when it comes to money.

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